THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
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Hi everyone
I'm just popping in to thank all my lovely friends for their pm's, messages on here, texts and phone calls and to say that it means such a lot knowing we are all here for each other.
Everyone says that the weeks/months leading up to the first anniversary are hard and it is so true as already I am reliving this time last year and know that the next few months aren't going to be easy. What has surprised me, is the intensity of my feelings, it feels as though the grief is fresh all over again. I am hanging on tight to that rope though, as I know we all are and next week I'll try to be back to support more.
With much love and big hugs to all those that need them,
Well, before I run out to my exercise class- oh yes I am on a mission!!! I just wanted to have a group hug. Yep, I am making demands (again!!). Come on you know you want to...... Lovely
You are all on your own journies and the there is one thread that holds us all together.......friendship. A friendship that has been born from pain and fear. That souls have been bare, with no barriers. Yet, we know what each other are like, we have met one another - not physically - and I know you are good people with good hearts. I don't need to know whether you have brown hair, or are 6ft. Cause I have caught glimpses of all of your spirits and that is all I need to see. That is all that counts.
So look after yourselves. Please. Give yourselves the space to feel sorry for yourself if you need to. Look at how many people moan about their lives, yet they have not been taught how precious life is. Their eyes have not been opened to the true beauty of life.
So, go with the flow. Just don't forget if you hit a low, the only way back is up. And UP you will come. You are all stars. Sometimes you don't realise how bright you shine. Well, I'm here to remind you that your spirits and love break through any dark clouds.
I wish you all a good weekend. Tomorrow when you wake. Think of a happy thought and you will smile and the fire of strength will come back to your tummies. Big Love and oodles of hugs and maybe a few tickles?! Bern xx
Michelle - have a fab holiday. You unwind honey and enjoy your holiday. Stimulate your sense xx
I remember bumping into someone I hadn't seen for about 8 months, and this was about 2 months after Mum died. I told her Mum had passed and she said "I could tell, as soon as I saw you"
I thought I was my oblivious old self, bumbling through Tesco, but apparently it was written all over my face. I thought 'Is is really that obvious?'
When you opened the door on Thursday y ou had the same look Rochelle. If I had never met you before I would have known that you had lost someone very dear to you. It's all in the eyes, and I know that you are very proud of how you have coped with your loss, you have shown your Mum's dignity and courage, but we will all be here for you when you need extra reserves of strength.
Rochelle - I hope you managed a few smiles and a dance on Saturday night. Don't forget that we are all here for you, on those bad days X
Michelle - thinking of you and hoping you can relax a little on your holiday X
Bern - oh lady of wise words, what would we do without you? How are things? X
Melly - it is so good to see you spreading your mushroom power around here. I know that things have been hectic for you of late, here's hoping that this week is a little kinder to you hun X ps I still waiting to hear about this discovery of yours! X
Em - please don't worry about supporting us a the moment, as long as you are still around that's what matters, as we would miss you. Sending you some strength filled (((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) X
Helen - I hope we can catch up later as want to know just how bad you've been this weekend X
SAM Sam - hello fellow wine drinker, how was your weekend? X
Wendy - ((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) for you as know that you are finding it tough at the moment. Please know that we are always here for you when you need us. We will have a chat again soon hun X
Jac - thinking of you and your wonderful family. Don't be a stranger X
Nic - hope you are still popping in to read now and then so you know that you are in our thoughts and we are here when you need X
Kelsey - I understand your need to stay away from here when things are going okish hun. Just come back now and again to let us know how you are X
Den - any news yet? X
Lesley, Dawn, Cath - thinking of you all X
Well my friends, I have all but lost the plot methinks and I am now at the point where it really wouldn't take very much, to send me over the edge! This weekend I have cried, screamed, felt so bloody angry, so very sad, had a few laughs (hard not to sometimes when you have a mad five year old with a very dirty sense of humour!) then cried and screamed some more. My stress levels are so high that yesterday I got worked up playing a game on the playstation (I know, big kid), that my heart nearly thumped its way out of my chest and I gave myself palpitations! Really thought I was going to have a heart attack! The good thing is, I have got an appointment to see a bereavement counsellor on Wednesday and it is such a relief, knowing that there is someone who might just be able to help with this flipping grief thing. The poor woman, she doesn't realise yet what she's taking on! Please keep your fingers and toes crossed that it helps in some way, even if just a little otherwise it will be a trip to the looney bin for me!
ps I've just found out that I have been made a great aunt for the eighth time. (I feel so old and that is without our Helen telling me!) My brother has his first grandchild, a little girl who must have come into being the week following Dad's passing, which feels strange. I just wish Dad was here to see this little one, he would have been made up for his son.
GGGGollllllYYYYYYYYY GOSH!!!!! It's taken 20 attempts to get too post!! is it me or has the site gone into tortoise mode???
((((((((((((((((((Sam))))))))))))))))))))))))) one day at a time again hunny XXX
My wonderful friends (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))
Right guys I have spoken with somebody off this site and asked there opinion on whats happening with me and the haematologist and feel better knowing that I am not imagining that things could be quite serious and could also be nothing to worry about but I have been feeling like a hypocondriach (spelling?) as Tony has become his usual dismissive self ha ha. Although I did say to him this morning and he said he does it so he feels better and does'nt have to think about it.!!!!
You are all having bad times it seems but you know what my dear friends look how far we have come look at the strength and friendship you have all given to each other. You are doing it !!!!! Keep it up.
Mel, I know you must be feeling pre worn down right now with one thing after the other kicking you down but never lose yourself as you are one hell of an amazing lady XXX
just a quickie to wave hello and see how you all are. I've not fallen off the face of the earth, but been abit manic - went away on holiday with the whole family, which was lovely, but so wished dad was with us - he'd have loved it. Anyway new job is keeping me silly busy, so dont' have time to post in work anymore. What is the world coming to, having a job where you can't skive!?!? anyway even when i'm not on here, you're not far from my thoughts. Had a medical as part of my new job and cried in front of the doctor (great start!) it was the first time i'd had to answer the family medical history question since dad died and having to say outloud that he had died, his age and what he had died from was devasting. Fortunately he was lovely about it!
Yay Cath, good, good, good to hear that you enjoyed your hols and the job is keeping you busy. I too had my first biggest blub when doing the family history bit!!! keep well hunny we think og you too XXX
You are all stars. Sometimes you don't realise how bright you shine. Well, I'm here to remind you that your spirits and love break through any dark clouds.
