THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)

Ohh ello girlies, i hope you don't mind but i've just popped into to say hi!

I do miss all my mateys on here, hope you are all coping ok. Me? Well i'm doing 'ok' it's my 40th birthday next friday so having a bit of a knees up with family and friends.

Just got back from Turkey with my mum and kids, we had a good holiday although i did miss Vince a lot especially of a night when the kids went to bed and i was sitting out on the balcony by myself.

But hey, life is getting back on track abeit the odd down day, i try to look on the brightside as i know Vince was so worried that i wouldn't be able to cope. I know he is looking down from heaven and smiling at me.

Take care my friends. Love to you all Dawn xxxxxx and (((((hugs))))) all round xxx

Oh Rochelle,

I am sooo glad you posted that, my two terror's our driving me ABSOLUTELY BL****Y INSANE !!!!

I can laugh now as they are packed off to nursery for the day ... but they started on each other at 6.45am this morning. My neighbours must think I am the mother from hell. My tolerance level is at minus 100 at the moment .... do you feel the same??

Sorry for moan and rant, feel a little better now

Love to all, Michelle xxxxxxx

Michelle & Roch, Just wanted to say the patience comes back eventually although it's more relxed if that makes sence you become a little distracted to things that would have really annoyed you before.

My girls are currently happy playing school's EERRMM!!! they could'nt wait to break up but for some reason my eldest two really enjoy bossing my younger three around ha ha.

Well I'm off to the health visitor at 12 for my little ones 2yr check and am really considering asking her advice on counselling although having the girls makes me uncomfortable with the health visitor as I always feel they judge you anyway!! perhaps i'm just paranoid?

Bern, I don't struggle to see my Dad or his voice at the moment but I know exactly what you mean. Hope things are okay your end I feel like it's ages since I caught up with everyone properly.

Love to all XXX

Hi Em,

Glad you are posting a little again, but also totally understand why you found it hard too. Hope your "family" life is getting a little back on track again ... mine seems to for a week or so then whosh I've gone full steam ahead shutting everyone out and thinking so negatively about things ... particaularly hubby ... bless him, him did the ironing yesterday but he's really annoyed me as he folded it all up wrong and made it even more creased ... guess I should have just done it in the first place!!

With regards to the HV's .... I saw mine about a week or so ago as I am really struggling with coping my girls, she was quite good as she did talk to me more about my feelings and how to try to not be so hard on myself and too just let certain things around the house go!! But what she said about the girls (or how to cope with them) I knew already really. But I think you are right about them judging you... I get that impression too.

I have also contacted my local Cruise office about bereavement counselling and it appears to be a really lengthy process ..... I guess they are just really very busy. I contacted them about 4 weeks ago and on the 14th of Aug I go for an initial assement.... then I may have to wait upto 4 months for the actual counselling to start !!! So maybe it wouldn't be a bad thing to make enquiries for it now to start the ball rolling. Even if you feel in a month or two you dont need it, you can just cancel your registration.

Much love em, Michelle

Good afternoon ladies,

Well I've just got a chance to post whilst my little man is sleeping - how I ever worked I do not know! I am timing every moment by feeds now!!

Will is fine and thriving! He had his 6 week check last Monday and is fine, he weighed in at a whopping 12lb 9oz - I swear he is eating pizza when our backs our turned. I am fine now, I feel totally recovered although hoping that the weird "shelf" thingy where I have my wound will go down eventually. I had my first outing without Will and Rob last Saturday, I went to the races, it was ladies day and it was really good - no winners though and got a tad tipsy on champagne! Missed my boys like mad though but was really good and only rang home once! It makes a difference from last year's ladies day when I didn't get home until 2 the following morning with tomato sauce down my posh frock and minus some very expensive shoes (oops!)

I had a bit of a bad day actually yesterday. My mother in law brought a dvd of a tiny bit of footage from our wedding. We had a lot of visitors yesterday and I said I'd watch it later on in the day but oh no, everyone insisted that it should be put on, and yes you guessed it, the floodgates opened. Rob was in the kitchen so wasn't aware of what was going on but soon got the gist after I rushed past him and locked myself in the bathroom. I was really annoyed, not because of the dvd but the fact that everyone would have known my dad was on that dvd and knowing how my hormones are at the moment still insisted that it be put on, then have the cheek to fuss over me later saying that they didn't realise how upset I would get!!! Is that just the most insane thing to say? I had a face like a slapped a*** all day, I really cannot get some people sometimes. I am really grateful for the dvd, but wish I'd had a chance to view it in my own time. Do that sound awfully ungrateful?

Anyway, I'm okish today. I had my 6 week check with the nurse this morning and arrived 2 hours early - I swear even more brain cells have disapeered since Will was born!

Sam - Hi, hope you are ok nd not being too demtented by the summer hols!

Em - Glad you had a good time in Cyprus, I hope the break did you the world of good, it sounds like it did.

Bern - Hope you are well, ps we never guessed will's weight correctly on our sweep!!

Mel - Lots of hugs, hope you are ok

Helen - did you like the pic of me boy?

To everyone else, lots of love and courage and strength. Even when everything seems to be ok, we all need a bit of love and support.

Going to try and eat my weight in peanut M&M's now - couldn't eat them when I was pregnant and now I can't get enough of them! Am not going to last in my pre pregnancy jeans for long at this rate!

Love Wendy xxx