THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
Sorry gang, I need to have a rant just to get this out of my system.......Arrgghhhhhhhhhh my mum got a call last night and my cousin started talking about her dad who has been diagnosed with prostate cacner. I have spoken to my cousin about this and it supposed to early stages. What I am annoyed about is 'why speak to my mum'? I'm probably not going to make much sense here...sorry.....my mum dealt with enough when she was diangosed, then she watched me go through the pain of my dads diagnosis and actually came up to say goodbye to him. She is focusing on herself now and staying positive and has had the all clear for a year and a half now.
So, I suppose I am annoyed as I appreciate my cousin needs to speak to someone, but its not going to be my mum. I didn't talk to my mum about my dad, as she didn't need to hear it. So, if I didn't do it, no one else is going to.
I know my cousin needs support and I, her sister and friends are around for this. How on earth am I going to tell her not to start going down the route of talking to my mum without upsetting her too much. My priority is my mum and I just have to make sure I can be diplomatic, even though at the moment my blood is boiling...... if you think I am being mean, then that is ok. I know I need to get this out of my system so I can be nice!!! Thanks and whinge over. Love Bern xx
Bern - you rant away my friend and no, you're not being mean. I totally agree that your Mum doesn't need to be talking about all of this now and maybe even yourself hun? As Rochelle says, you have both been through so much.
I hope you find a way of explaining to your cousin and that she understands.
Big ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))) and lots of love,
Once again super quick message as getting ready for an interview....keep those fingers crossed, please.
Thanks for your messages. I needed to vent to get it out of my system. I did feel much better. I will talk to my cousin. I know she is really worried about her dad and if I am being honest I am not too sure it has been caught at early stages even though they say it has. He has lost weight and has had bowel problems - the positive side, it is the stress causing the problems. Pessimistic and knowing weight loss and this illness are not good.
I'm fine dealig with this. If I can be of help then I will be. Its not my dad going through this, so I know this sounds harsh, it won't really upset me and it won't make me re-live it. I may need to ask for advise though as this illness progresses. But hey, the doctors have said it is very early, so I won't need advise!!
When I stop running round like a blue **** fly, I promise to mail properly. In the meantime
Roch - great to see you back. You take it day by day. We are all here honey and will pick you up and through the life buoy your way when you need it. Grieve in your own time and own way
Queen Sam - honey, you have been amazing recently. I just want you to realise that
Jac - super big hugs for you. You been quieter than I have and that is not a good sign. No naughty head means, a not happy Jac. Thinking of you honey
Mel - Hey DUDE!!
Em - hope your time with family is great and you all come back re-charged. Things seem pants, you will get stronger as a couple
Nic - you gone on hols again?? If not where are you?
Kelsey - I know you get scan results soon? I am keeping fingers and toes crossed for you
Barbie - rev up that dyson, cause if I am bad today I may need you to rescue me.
SAM - hey misses. How you doin'? Where you been? Has the pink one tied you up?? Promise her Scrumpy if she releases you, normallyu works!!
Michelle - hey, great that you and hubby had some 'we' time.
Donna- you got an op soon and I am rubbish and can't remember when. I will be thinking of you.
I am bound to have forgotten peeps...SUE - I know you are ready this and now you are smiling, cause I caught you out!!! hee hee. Hugs and love galore. You super wonderful people, keep doing what you do best. Loving and fighting with immense spirit and courage. Bern xx
Is it just me, or is anyone else being driven mad by the kids being off school? Thankfully stepson comes back tonight for another week, he helps keep the little one occupied so I get a little peace and gooness knows I need it! Patience may well be a virtue but it's not something I have any of right now!
Bern - Glad you feeling a bit better. I hope it is early stages for your cousin's dad but do give me a shout if I can give any advice. Fingers and all crossed for the interview today X
Mel - missing you so much X
Em - you too hun X
Kelsey - I know you won't be around this week but thinking of you and your Dad X
Helen - one word, yenor! X
SAM Sam - hope our girl is not leading you astray too much X
Nic - how are you hun, you've been so quiet since you got back from holiday. Just let us know you are ok, if you can X
Rochelle - sending you some (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) hun X
Jac - thinking of you and sending some hugs your way too ((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))) X
Cath - I know you have a birthday coming up, will be thinking of you and hope you can pop in to say hello X
Michelle - hope the rest of the weekend went well for you. You've been quiet this week, hope you are ok X
Wendy - hugs for you and the little one. Hope to see you here again soon with an update X
Right, am off to be driven mad again. Roll on this evening!
I have had a fab time and the wedding was great. This is a flying visit as hubs is home for a few days and you know that I don't visit while he's around ha ha.
Things seem to be getting a little better for me at the ent and I was shocked last night when Tony asked me yesterday if he should cash the winning tickets of the horses we put on for Dad to buy a memory tree!!!! shock horror he must realise how I struggling.
Well Dad has gone and it's time for me to stop looking for signs and get my life back on track Dad would'nt want me to be feeling so crap all time.
Helen, great to see you posting hunny especially the long ones.lol XXX
Mel, as usual always thinking of everybody but yourself I love you hun.XXX(P.S I think my best friend may be coming back to me I hope yours comes back soon too)
Sam, Well done for making a start I know it's the hardest part and I am still not ready to take down all the boxes and go through whats left of Dad's belongings, baby steps hun.XXX
Bern, Thanks hun you are a wonderful friend.XXX
Kelsely, Have been thinking of you loads hunny I hope Dad is comfortable. XXX
Wendy, Hope you and Will are enjoying getting to know each other.XXX
Michelle, Hope the counselling helps it's a start anyway is'nt it.XXX
Rochelle, It's early days and I think we have all searched for signs and live with the hope that one day we will know for sure where our loved ones are and that they are happy. Your doing really well so keep your chin up.XXX
Cath, Hope yu have managed over your anniversary and things are feeling a little less heavy.XXX
Sue, Lesley & Dawn, you are always in my thoughts.XXX
Donna, Hope your okay too,XXX
Jac, How's things have'nt seen any posts!!!!! XXX
Nic, Hope you had a great holiday and are feeling stronger XXX
Sorry I havent posted this week, but to be honest, today is the day i've been dreading, one of my 1st's....... Dad's birthday. Not really sure how I feel, but i dont know whether I should be feeling this.... but I just want today to be over, as my Dad so loved his birthday. I so missed calling him this morning to wish him a happy birthday, still I've said it many times in my mind.
Love to all, will post again once feeling abit stronger, Michelle xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Em - so good to see you back my friend and feeling a little stronger. We have missed you loads, the place hasn't been the same without you and our Melly X
Michelle - Big (((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))). Today is going to be so hard for you but remember that however you are feeling, there is no right or wrong way. I hope that releasing some balloons later on will help just a little, it did for me. Thinking of you hun and we are here for you X
Cath - so sorry, got the dates of your birthday mixed up. Hope you are ok X
Bern - how did the interview go? Good I hope X
Mel - huge (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) for a special friend. I hope you are managing some smiles along the way X
Lots of love to all including those not mentioned. I hope those of you who aren't posting much are ok, we are here for you when you are ready.
Ohh ello girlies, i hope you don't mind but i've just popped into to say hi!
I do miss all my mateys on here, hope you are all coping ok. Me? Well i'm doing 'ok' it's my 40th birthday next friday so having a bit of a knees up with family and friends.
Just got back from Turkey with my mum and kids, we had a good holiday although i did miss Vince a lot especially of a night when the kids went to bed and i was sitting out on the balcony by myself.
But hey, life is getting back on track abeit the odd down day, i try to look on the brightside as i know Vince was so worried that i wouldn't be able to cope. I know he is looking down from heaven and smiling at me.
Take care my friends. Love to you all Dawn xxxxxx and (((((hugs))))) all round xxx
