THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)

what's with all these good bye's??????
Jesus, i got a week away from other friction and now there is another dose on the Mac site, it's all the main people too, whats happening.

I've not read back, will do in the morning when i'm back at work.
I had a great time, no white bits, lol, loads of wine, sun and relaxation, the mountain views were great, and i found myself thinking of mum and you lot, wondering if Jac & DH were OK,
had Ems been arrested in Blackpool,
has Bern been employed yet,
Is Mels drowning in the buckets of coke in the US of A,
has Helen been on top of the missions or George,
has Sam Sam passed out pissed somewhere,
does Sam still own my Girls on facebook.
how is Rochelle coping

but it was good to get a week away with an empty mind, and Bern i did smell life again, i did breathe life again and i did smile when i thought of mum, also there was 2 times when i was lost in thought and there just in front of me was a beautiful bird of prey hovering in the curve of the mountain, i told myself this was mum telling me she was happy. it stayed there for an hour or so.

Hello all,

Not sure what's been going on as I haven't been on the site for what seems like ages due to the fact I'm run ragged with my little man (wouldn't have it any other way though bless him!)

Em - sending you loads of hugs and strength hun, you will get through this I promise you.

Mel - get some rubber soled shoes so you don't get yourself bbq'd hun!!!!

Kelsey - am thinking of you hun, and you are in my thoughts

Barbie - yoo hoo!!!!

Sam - hope you are ok hun, was great talking to you the other day again

Bern - hope you are ok.

My brain is now pickled with motherhood and I'm really sorry that I've probably missed loads of people off, but am thinking of you all and sending you all support and courage.

Apart from walking aroundlike a zombie half the time I am ok. It would have been my mum's birthday on 17 July and I took it very badly this year. She would have so loved to see Will but I hope she is looking down on him and looking out for him. I have had lots of tears this weekend but hopefully am on the right track now.

I am off to look on the internet for dark circle eye cream now, the touche eclait isn't doing the job on it's own!

Hopefully be back soon.

Love Wendy xx

Hi all

Sorry I've not been around the last few days, I felt that I needed to take a bit of a back seat for a while, whilst having a good think about what needs to be done next. Time is bobbing on and I seem to be in limbo land and not getting anywhere. I have decided that this Friday will be the day that I make more of an effort at Dad's house, I'm also going to visit the grave as it will be the anniversary of Mum going on Sunday and I want to take some flowers and make sure everything is ok, before I sort out the headstone being put back. There is so much to do and think about, it feels as though a heavy weight is on my shoulders. It feels strange taking things out of the house. For example, there is a dvd player that we could use at home, but I am so reluctant to bring it here as that would be admitting that Dad will
never be using it again. I still can't get my head around the fact that he won't be using all that stuff ever again. Those of you who have been through this, please tell me I'm doing the right thing and that I won't regret making a proper start. It doesn't feel right yet but I really don't think that time will ever come to be honest. How come, after all this time, I am still thinking this way? It's strange but I can't help it. I know he's not coming back but it just makes everything so final. I've been in touch with Cruise but still waiting to hear back. Anyway enough of my rambling, how is everyone else?

Kelsey - I've been thinking loads about you and hope your Dad is more comfortable now? I agree with Em, it's a tough place where you are now. My Dad also used to get confused and we were told it was a mixture of the drugs and just the illness in general. Not nice to see though. Big hugs hun, we are here for you always. Let us know how things go with the scan this week X

Bern - yes, we do have a wii, it's great fun. Wait 'til you come and stay, we be competitive too, hee hee. How you doing? X

Jac - hope all is ok as you have gone quiet again too. Have the antibiotics started to help yet? Big hugs for you all X

Helen - I hope your day with your lad yesterday was a good one. Give SAM Sam a hug from me. Love you mate X

Michelle - I hope talking to the counsellor today helps a little. Let us know how you get on won't you hun? X

Melly - it's so good to hear from you even whilst you are away, I miss you loads. Hope you are having a good day today, whatever you are doing X

Nic - it's good to have you back and I'm glad that you managed a few smiles when thinking of your Mum. I've not been on facebook for a while, will have a look in a bit X

Em - sending some strength filled hugs your way and hope that this holiday will help you a little. It will be good to have you back here again and we will all be here waiting for when you are ready X

Wendy - it's good to see you here and yes, it was great to talk to you again too. Sorry you had another hard day to face this week, you should have said hun. Hope you are ok too and that your little boy is bringing you so much joy. You know where I am whenever you need a chat X

Donna - thanks for letting us know about Mel, it's good to know she has someone watching out for her over there. Hope all is ok with you X

Rochelle - how are you hun? We are here for you, whenever you need X

Cath - you too hun, let us know how things are, you've not been around for a while X

Lots of love to everyone,

Sam X

Hey Helen,

(So sorry to intrude guys) Just wanted to say hi again and sorry i never saw this until now (would you believe I messed up meds, have to wait till 2am to take next lot and have been reading about Einstein on net.....how sad am I). You do make sense, you always make sense. I simply can't begin to imagine how very, very hard this must be for you with J. (frying pans = good bargaining tool!) We mums always say it's gonna be ok 'cos we always want it to be that way for them and I just wish I could help you out here but I simply don't have the words as I am not walking in your unbelievably brave shoes.

Even though you'll be in zzzzzzzzzzz land now, I just wanted to reach out and send love and masses of hugs to you and your brave boy.

Loluv, Ang xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ps, I love fruit pastille ice lollies and now that you've put me in the mood, i'll have to settle for a mivvi (remember them?) type ice, can't remember it's new name, as i don't have any fruit pastille ones in house. Thanks for that! X

pps, sorry about long user-name,was done for bit of laugh with one of other girls, will change it back soon as back online. I forgot my name would change everywhere! Tired or thick? Both prob.X

Morning

Well, I was worried yesterday that my post was too long but blimey Helen mate, I needn't have worried! Now, you know how old I am now (as you keep on telling me!) and how me eyes aren't as good as they used to be, well I got bloody eye strain reading all of that hun, hee hee. Seriously though my friend, no post from you could be too long as we love to hear from you and regarding the content, no way is it too heavy, as you put it and I am so glad that you feel able to share these things with us here. Mate, it must be heartbreaking for you, seeing J go through this and we do understand how hard it must be, how much of a worry it all is. You just want to be able to take his pain away. I'm always useless with words at a time like this hun but what I can say, is that your lad has the best mum ever and he knows how very much he is loved. My friend, we are always here for you, you know that and if it would help at all, we are here for J too. It goes without saying (but I will anyway) that you can pm me anytime hun, I always here to listen. Huge massive hugs to you and J. Love you, yenor forever X