THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
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YIPPEEE!!!! Just thought I would say that, cause I like the look of the word and also how it sounds......no I haven't been drinking!!! Off out now. Catch ya later dudettes. Big hugs all round. XX
Yes, I am still here, but like so many of us am really struggling. Had a few things go wrong in the last few weeks, and feel like I am drowing abit. I know I am very lucky and shouldnt complain, as many people of this site have been in some terrible terrible situations, but since my Dad went, everything seems to be closing in on me. I guess most of my life I'd been really lucky in that Ive never really had any hard situations to cope with until my Dad fell ill, now they are coming all at once from different directions and I'm fighting everyday to keep my head above water.
Anyhow, enough doom and glooom about me,
Bern..... sorry to hear about your job, just as the weather turns nice .... oopps. So a Big Brother fan ehh..... will we get to see you in their next series????
Sam..... ohh holiday holiday.... am so jealous, where are you off to?
Hi Sam Sam, hope your doing ok.... lots of love to Helen, glad to hear she's been out riding on her dyson xxxx
Hi Em, how was blackpool?.... hope you let lots of steam off, thought about you lots on Friday xxxx
Jacs... thinking about you all, sending you much strength and courage.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Rochelle.... hope you are having a nice holiday
Mel and Nic..... am soo jealous!!
Donna... hope you are keeping strong, sending love across the pond xxxxx
sorry honey, my system crashed after a big message!!!! Will have to re-send tomorrow as have a frind coming round for a BBQ - but not sure if I have enough charcoal and the food is still frozen!! Think its oven time instead.
Big hugs Sam. Do you realise how long a way you have come? Do you realise how much you help others? Well, you are a special lady and I am reminding you of that. Tonight go outside, look at the stars and take some deep breaths. If there is peace and quiet it is amazing standing looking at the stars and listening to the world go by. We don't take time out often enough I think and instead life carries us on and we go from one thing to another without taking stock and re-charging the batteries.
I will do that tonight too. I will also be raising a glass of the fizzy stuff - hey it was bought before I lost the job, so a girl has to still have the good things in life you know!!!! I will be raising it and saying Cheers to all you beautiful people here. Cause in this cyberworld I have had a glimpse of the true beauty of your souls and for that I am forever grateful. Come on Group Hug and to those on hols...nah nah na nana nah!! (hope you have a great time chilling) XXX
Hey Bern, no problems about the message hun, I was only teasing. I hope your BBQ goes ok, have a glass of the fizzy stuff for me too X
Michelle - ((((((((((((((((big hugs))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are struggling and having to deal with other things on top of your grief. Sometimes, life throws these things our way and we have to cope the best way we can. You are doing so well hun, although it might not feel like it now, you will look back one day and see how well you coped. We are here to listen, give a hug, whatever, just don't keep us in the dark, when you are struggling X
Em - I'm worried about you my friend, will you just pop in to let us know you are ok X
I will be back on tomorrow. Keep posting everyone, together we can do this XXX
Thank-you for your hug xxx. Do really think that I am finding day to day life harder and harder.
Am worried that my marriage to Paul is on the rocks.... I am grieveing and he has a very stressful job, so the two combined is abit of a reciepe for a looming disaster... I love him to bits but I just find that our lives are in such different places at the moment and we have stopped communicating, mostly my fault as I am shutting myself away. He works very long hours, leaves at 6am and gets home at 7/8pm... so I cope with bringing our children up pretty much single handed. We have two beautiful girls who are quite demanding... I know most kids are, but I'm finding that I am really struggling with them at the moment and must be the mother from hell.
I also run a small website from home in spare time ( whats that??? lol) and my Dad was instrumental in helping me to set it up, now he has gone I just cant find the motivation to carry on with it. I cant find the focus for it and now am starting to worry about it. It's not losing money, but I should be spending more time on it to get the gain from it, but I just find it really hard to get into that frame of mind.
I am also responsible for selling my Dads business (my choice as I didnt want mum to have the hassle of it) and we did have a buyer, then on the day of exchange last week, he dropped his offer by £150k (ar**********le!!!) so now it has all fallen through and I am back to square 1.
I am just finding all these things abit too much for my shoulders to carry at the moment, but I have no where to turn... I cant offload anything on mum as she has enough to cope with, Paul has enough to worry about with his job and keeping a roof over our heads, so I have to go along with it I guess.
After reading all this through, I am sitting here thinking..... how selfish of me to feel like this.... my Dad, together with all our loved ones would love to still be here and cured!!! How must have this god awful disease made/make them feel, knowing that their lives where/are in the lapp of the gods, and here's me feeling sorry for myself . I guess I am just hoping that writing my feelings down will help me feel better and am sneakily hoping from some more hugs.
Aw go on please don't let it be another go slow day....... okay so some of you are on holidays right now... but what about the rest of you? Come baaaaaacccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkk...... it's awful lonely here today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Has everyone just moved to facebook? Feeling a right Billy no mates...sorry to anyone christened Billy!
On a lighter note....me is the first poster, now just don't let me be the only poster!
Not funny now have found myself replying on other threads, as if I don't have enough to fill my days? Going to buy washing powder....little one wet the bed last night and DH's night sweats result in daily bed changes to ours...another fun filled laundry day...Who said the life of us ladies wasn't glam?
