THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)

Morning All,

Bloodyhell what is going on here?? Not much from the looks of it. Have you all gone on holiday and left me??!! That is wishful thinking me thinks. I think things are getting tougher for some of you.

So, ladies, ladies, ladies...can we please all join hands in a circle.....yes come on make space for everyone...all are welcome. Now are you ready? Hold tight, take a deep breath....put your left leg in, your left leg out, in, out, in, out, shake,......you know the rest!! I hope that raised a smile at least, or even a raise of the eyebrow is good!!!

Wendy - wicked to hear that all is good with you and Will. Your parents were with you making sure you were both ok. Big hugs for you

Jac - hope things are ok with you?

Sam - morning honey. Did you ever get through on that call or is still answering machine?? Where is my cuppa?? Hey honey, I know things are tough for you. We all grieve in different ways and I can't tell you when you will stop feeling sad and this void. Just be prepared that when you feel you should be getting better, sometimes you feel worse. This drove me insane as it didn't make sense...now though I think I realise when it felt like things were getting worse, I was getting better. Cause the numbness was lifting and bit by bit I was partaking in life. I think of my dad everyday and I often talk about him...funny things. There are many things I would like to know...I realised for the race I didn't even know his favourite colour - but I then thought 'don't be stupid' - yes I talk to myself in a very nice manner!! In the scheme of things how important are these things?? Not really, I know the spirit of my dad and his love and anything else is just wishing away what I already have. Hang in there honey. XX

Melanie - I will be your PA if it means I can do P All!!! Sorry, rude head on this morning. Hope you doing ok. If things done't get done, no stress. I refused to do things for ages, cause my life was ruled by what I had to do, be that physically, mentally and emotionally. But then I didn't do anything I didn't want to do. I refused if someone said I had to do it.....my answer was I don't have to do anything I don't want to!! You can't answer that one really can you?? I think its called taking stock of life and rather than it continuing as if everything is normal, we need rest time. We need to sit back and remember what is important and to stop running round like headless chickens all the time, cause we know how important life is. So, we decide what is important and what to do.

Em - nothing I say can take away the pain you are feeling. Anniversaries are rubbish. Just try and not re-live last year. If you are going to re-live, the re-live the good. The talking, the hugging, the loving..cause there was lots of that. Thats the important stuff honey. Thats the stuff that will fill your heart with love. The bad bit, well you can't go back and change it. The bad bit brings with it the fear and misery and we all know that is not what our loved ones want for us. There is a poem by David Harkins that I pulled out many a times....it gave me the fighting spirit I needed, when grief was trying its damdest to make me feel awful about life and those who love me. Cause this is still a fight against cancer.

You can shed tears that he is gone,
Or you can smile because he lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he is gone
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your
back,
Or you can do what he would want: smile, open your eyes,
love and go on.

Nic - honey I am thinking of you and I know you are taking a back seat for a while. Just don't be too long!! I ran with pride last week honey in honour of your mum. Just want to let you know that we have raised a good amount of money. Thank you

Kelsey - hows the toe? Any better? I would make hubby buy gifts...maybe a poker,so you can poke the sour nurse!!

Dawn - honey we are all holding onto that rope. We will pull you in when you are ready. You can drift safely in the knowledge that you won't go too far. For now, though just do what you need to. X

Barbie - hey honey, thinking of you. Sending you oddles of love and hugs. Will drop by later on the dyson and bring some Scrumpy and butlers in the buff. I have never tried a convoy with a dyson but we will do our best...cause now I have mentioned butlers in the buff, everyone will want to come!! Think SAM might let us away with it??? SAM have I told you how lovely and very pretty you are?? 9Helen do you think that worked??)

Donna - honey sending you big love to, as I know you feeling failry poo at the moment. I'm still keeping my finegrs crossed for Paul

Den - have you and bump gone on holiday?? Where are you????

Cath - hope things at work are calming down for you? Hope things are good

Lesley - Mrs Positive and wonderful. How you doing?

Rochelle - thinking of you honey. You just take time out honey and lean to grieve. You know we are all here for you. We will walk by your side and hold your hand. We will also be a bit behind you for the itmes you need to walk and be on your own.

To anyone I have missed, sending you big love. I am rushing out the door now and brain is no longer working!!

Well, I have two questions for you.... Can you keep the positive vibes going. Am awaiting to hear if I get an interview and I want this job, although not building my hopes up!!
Also, does anyone have an idea about the best way of shipping clothes out to another country is response to a disaster?? Want to do a collection of clothes and blankets to be sent to Philippines - request from someone out there - we can get clothes...just not sure best way to get them shipped out, so arrive quickly without costing an arm and a leg...answers if you have any on an email please. Love Bern xx

Hi all

A low day for me today, as I'm tired and that always makes me feel worse. Just wanted to pop on to see how everyone is doing. Why are some of you hiding???

Bern - yes, got through and am waiting for someone to contact me but it could take a couple of weeks. The poem you posted almost brought tears to the surface again, which reminds me that I've not had a good cry for a little while. Possibly why I'm feeling so crap again!Still sending loads of positive vibes your way and everything is crossed which is very uncomfortable so can you hurry up and get the job! Good luck B X

Lesley - so sorry to see you are leaving and know I won't be the only one. Like Mel, I hope you are able to come and say hello now and again. Take care and keep doing it! X

Melly - ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) for you my friend. These anniversaries are hard, whatever the occasion and they always manage to remind us yet again (like we need reminding!) of what we have lost. I'm thinking of you hun and here if you need me X

Em - gosh hun, slow down. Reading all that has made my head dizzy, so no idea how you must be feeling, you have so much going on right now. I know how difficult this time is for you Em, you are doing so well X

Love to all, including those not mentioned,

Sam X

Nic hun, what is happening to you, is perfectly normal under the circumstances. This phase seems to settle in after a while, where we have no 'get up and go', no energy and we just can't be bothered with things. Concentration goes and you just feel so tired.

(((((((((((((((((((((huge hugs)))))))))))))))))))) Nic, it is grief, but it's so hard.

I hope your holiday will give you time to unwind a little.

Lots of love,

Sam X