Post 236: Throbbing pains in lumber and groin!
Vital statistics:
Temp: Normal but some hot bedsweats
BP: perfectly normal.
Weight: steady, but no appetite
Hair: Needs a trim in a couple of weeks.
Anything else: Steadily going down hill.
Looking forward to Christmas but not my increased disabilities.
Pain: 8/10
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When someone asks, are you still in pain?
Thanks for asking, it’s alright in the main 
The little voice shouts from inside my head
Tell them the truth it feels like I’m dead.
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With the like likelihood of this post being banned due to too many expletives, it’s a must that I only skirt around the edges of throbbing pain and it’s 3 or 4 hour long impossible session.
What it is anybody’s guess but it here to stay and comes and goes when it likes.
Quite honestly I’m close to giving up, I really am. It’s all new to me, this lowering of all the pain threshold’s working out if there’s somebody I should tell.
I’m feeling like there’s something in temperature; both my body and the groom I’m in.
I’m buggered if I can fathom what’s happening to cause it and to be truthful nothing much stops it.
I’m defeated and worse still, still in pain.
When will I get better?
When will I get relief from the pain?
What’s the point of all this pain?
I’m beginning to not cope.
My Darling is now doing two full shifts at home.
I’m teaching her how to input the solar panel meter readings.
I’m getting ready to spiral the massive plug hole of human endings.
How did my mum cope with all the pain she was in? Am I a woose? Why can I not cope.
I hope I’m better tomorrow.
Good night
PS
I’ve postponed the old Volvos MoT due to my pains, I couldn’t get in the car, so I will have to cancel tomorrows meet and greet at elevenses.
I’m taking all this in my stride but my stride is nothing short of pathetic right now.
When will this end…
PPS
Sorry that the blog is short today.
I’m not myself and there are many problems I pick up every day. Leaving a week’s worth would be an amazing list.
Unfortunately I’m going backwards so fast I’m starting to get worried that the year and a half is too ambitious for a prognosis — in reality now.
