Hi All.
Its now 6 days since I had my lumpy removed along with auxillary node clearance and I had the stupid notion that I would be back to work by tomorrow. Came out of hospital on Friday afternoon and felt ok just tired (what can you expect when people are waking you every hour just to do your obs) and had a fantastic full nights sleep. Woke feeling really good and full of get up and go.
Spent Saturday fighting off daddy longlegs and catching up on all the washing but still went to bed a little sore and tired and managed to get another good nights sleep. Sunday was the day to iron all the washing and then relax in lovely bath.
Monday my mum picked up my 3yr old and took him to nursery then came back at 11,30 to whisk me to hospital to have my wound checked and dressing changed and all was well. We then decided to stop off at Sainsburys for a wuick shop as I was shoing signs of going stir crazy not having left my house for 3 days. Then back to her house for a sarnie and cake. By this time I was feeling a bit off colour but so as not to worry her kept stum. Feeling off colour lasted all night and woke this morning feeling like I had been on the pop for a few days so stayed in bed all morning trying to shake it off (me thinks I might have pushed it a little too soon after the op). So my mission of being back to work tomorrow is looking pretty slim. Now this could be the start of the nerves coming back for my appointment with the consultant on Thursday where I will hopefully get all the results and know where we go next.
Im sorry for being so down but this is the only place I know where I can take my mask off and let the true feelings come out because when I am around all my own I have managed to paint the smile and adopt the "everything is going to be ok and I feel good thanks" mask but it has a tendancy to slip off now and then but so far I have been lucky that it has never been in their presence.
Roll on Thursday when I can get some control back in my life and maybe I can even plan a more realistic back to work date.
Take care love Terri xxx
