I've gone back to work full time 37.5 hours a week and i can barely keep my eyes open when i get home. I even go to the gym and my stamina just wont improve at all. My doctor tells me it will be like this until i finish all my treatment but i want to have my stamina back now not in a year. I enjoy my life at the moment. Work is great and would be incredible if i wasn't so tired. I go to the gym when i feel like i have some energy, force myself if i have to, i play roller derby twice a week and nothing helps it just wears me down. I'm really struggling to see why i should continue with my treatment. In my eyes 10 years of running around doing what i want is better than 50 years of being knackered and worrying what if my cancer comes back what if them 3 years of treatment was for nothing and i end up at square one.
