Day 3 and no symptoms following chemo reported.
My husband has been good, the chemo, is after all supposed to make you a certain amount better.
After trying to be nice and do all the right things, it all backfired when after collecting kiddo from uni with husband, I finally had a temper tantrum and told everyone to get lost while I watched some innocuous rubbish on the box.Trying to be supportive can put me in a foul mood!
Love Susan
Hi you are not thinking like a pathetic wimp at all, you need to take some "me time" otherwise you will go crazy. trying to put a different face on for everyone else soon takes it toll as I found out. I was always the strong one in the family until my husband was diagnosed with Leukaemia and now my brain has gone to mush I cannot concentrate on anything for more than 5 minutes. so watch whatever you want and take some time for yourself.
I know exactly how you are feeling. While my beloved hubby lay upstairs feeling dreadful, i sat downstairs and watched full first series of Gavin and Stacy-how bad do i feel now as he sadly passed away a few days later and i wondered why i had sat watching tv while i should/could have been spending time with him. The truth is that it is what i needed to do at the time to remain sane and he knew this and would not have wanted it any other way.
In fact he encouraged me to do so as i think he knew it was my way of escaping an unimaginable situation. Also he maybe needed some time to himself? Who knows.
Anyway, do what you need to do to get you through each dreadful day and stay strong.
You need to be able to cope with so much and if this relaxes you then go for it.
Hi Susan - what on earth made you describe yourself in such a way! You are NOT at all a pathetic wimp. It's not just we who have cancer who suffer through the journey - those who love and care for us are under immense pressure. You will need time now and in the future just for YOU, otherwise you'll get smothered by all the emotions that are flying around, plus you have the added stress of Christmas. Don't be hard on yourself - treat yourself kindly, after all sweetheart, it's mainly fear for your husband that is probably causing the "temper tantrums", which I'm sure everyone will understand, Hold on tight, with lotsa love kate xxxxxxx
Thank you for trusting me by sharing some of your journey. And thank you for The God Bless prayer at the end. I shall try and take a lesson from what you have said. At the moment, hubby is not complaining of any symptoms.
I have bought the full set of carrry on fillms for us all to get us through the hols etc. or anything..... laughter,best medicine etc. (nearly)
