dad is in hospital after being admitted with a serious uti he is now in renal failure specialist spoke to mum today when she visited and asked if dad goes in to heart failure do she want him revived, mum has said no, we were told today he is dying and if we want to we can bring him home, mum is in turmoil she doesnt know what to do dad is very confused and when all this was explained he said oh well might as well stay here, i want dad with us but dont know if we can cope watching him slowly die in fronyt of our eyes, we have been told he could go at any time, emotionly im a wreck i cant even go see him i want to but feel im cracking up, i need to say goodbye but i cant, i havnt got the strength to do it i dont want my dad to leave me, i dont want to be here without him he is my everything, i realy think i am losing the plot
