Funny how things creep up on you and disturb the normal happy run of things again. Life is as busy as ever. I have a new job, we have partially relocated to Germany and are living between there and the UK and we've just come back from 10 days exploring (mostly vineyards) in the camper van. We're enjoying being back in Europe and it's still very warm and sunny here. All is good!
Except that in about a week's time, I have my first annual check up since my surgery a year ago. The “what if” scenarios are playing on my mind, despite my attempts to push them away. I self examine regularly and can't feel anything, though the nuked boob has lymphoedema and is lumpy and bumpy anyways so very difficult to tell if I have a new lump, the after-effects of the seroma, scar tissue or just fluid!
i also heard of the passing of a former colleague to stage 4 brain cancer this week. He amazingly managed 7 years despite being given 18 months, but it still brings it home, as he was close in age to me.
So, back to my appointment. I think I need to do what I do best, keep busy! And use my mindfulness app for sleeping, though it makes me smile that the best technique in there is a countdown from 100,000 - so basically when my Gran told me all those years ago to count sheep to get to sleep……
