Well I got up when mum shouted on me at around 6.30am. When I got into her room her back was on the bed but her bottom and legs were hanging out the side. She just couldn't get up. Each time I sat her up she just fell back again. After a bit I managed to get her up and get her washed and dressed. I got her safely into her chair and told her not to get out of it until I came back home. I went off to work but arranged that I would leave just before lunch. I phoned mum to tell her I was on my way home and there was no answer. I put my foot down in a panice but a couple of minutes later she rung to say she had been in the kitchen. So much for not getting out of the chair but at least she'd managed to go to the kitchen and make herself a sandwich and a cuppa. When I got in I went to make a cuppa and found that the kitchen top where the kettle is was swimming with water. She had struggled to lift the kettle and had spilt the boiling water all over the place. I made up my mind then that I would stay at home for the rest of the day.
Next I went up to the loo and when I came down mum was at the kitchen sink washing her plate and tea cup so I left her to it just keeping an eye on her. She came back into the lounge using her walking stick and all seemed well until she got to her chair. She put her walking stick down, over balance and the next thing I knew she was on the floor on her knees. It was a nightmare trying to lift her but I managed to lift her into her chair. I promptly burst into floods of tears!
I had spoken to Christine this morning and she said something that might help would be for mum to go into the hospice for a few days to try and get things sorted with the low sodium and the weaning off the steroids. However she said she knew from speaking to mum yesterday that there was no way she would entertain it. She wouldn't even consider going to their day care centre. Anyway through my tears I explained this to mum. It was heartbreaking and I won't go into details as I have just stopped sobbing but the upshot is if Christine can arrange it mum will go in for a few days with a view to getting things stabilised so that she can come home and be safe. I've left a message for Christine and I am praying that she goes back to the office today and pick up her messages. If not I'll sleep in mums room tonight and, hopefully, speak to Christine this morning. I am devastated. I feel as if mum thinks I don't want her at home and she keeps apologising to me. I don't want that I just want her to be better.
