I awake with anxiety, I can't control it, it controls me; often I'm disappointed that I'm awake, because, I have a far better time whilst I'm asleep. Awake, I have to acknowledge all my fears, doubts & worries & I spend the day trying to run away from them but they are running with me.
You can't run from your problems when your problems are you!
Physical & mental illnesses challenge you constantly, they are with you always & quite often remind you of what you can't do. Many tell me to focus on what I can do instead, which is all well & good but not always practically helpful.
At this moment in time I'm struggling with both physical & mental illness so don't feel I have any reserve within me to help myself. My mind & body are struggling & neither have the ability to help the other.
I'm emotionally drained, physically exhausted & mentally tortured; I am desperate to be well & I do all I can to try to achieve this but healing can be a slow process; my body might enjoy the slow pace back to wellness but my mind doesn't.
So where do I run when theres nowhere to hide!?!
