Monday
It snowed heavy today so we didn't walk far as it was so cold again and I had to get Lunch as we were going for my appointment at The Kent and Canterbury Hospital.
I emptied the fridge of all the vegetables and made a great soup adding beans and a can of tomatoes.
How simple it is to make homemade soups.
I showered and got ready to go to the hospital and as we set off the snow got thicker and thicker although travelling on the road was Ok as they had stayed cleared.
The traffic was very light for a change and so we got there on time.
I booked in at Reception and I was told to sit down and wait my turn.
I was a bag of nerves as this has been such a difficult journey and very hard to take in that all this has happened to me.
But I was called in by the Senior registrar to the Oncologist and she said that the Scan had shown that there was no Cancer cells in the thyroid and the Mesothelioma Tumour had stabilized.
I just sat there nothing would sink in as I know I cant be cured but then she started saying that the next Scan will be in 3 months and then after a year it will be every six months.
She was giving me a future I said you are now talking about years not months.
She said she cant say how long she couldn't commit. I agreed as I didn't want her to think I was pushing her into anything.
Ray asked if and when it flairs up again what happens and she said that I can have the Talc op again and chemo but usually when it reappears it is very aggressive and they will assesses it at that time.
She cant be fairer than that so that's in the future and I wont look that far ahead.
So she now wants me to contact my Doctor to have a thyroid function test, I will do that tomorrow ASAP.
I don't understand anything about the thyroid so I will be having a Google as soon as I have written this.
She also told me to have holidays to really start getting stronger and enjoy life again. I don't need second telling of that I'm now going to really enjoy life --well when the snow stops that is.
Thankyou for all your best wishes I feel you have all wished me through this.
Im a happy bunny and I will have fun fun fun!!!
Beneath this snowy mantle cold and clean
The unborn grass lies waiting for its coat to turn to green
The snowbird sings the song he always sings
And speaks to me of flowers that will bloom again in spring
When I was young my heart was young then, too
Anything that it would tell me, that's the thing that I would do
But now I feel such emptiness within
For the thing that I want most in life's the thing that I can't win
CHORUS
Spread your tiny wings and fly away
And take the snow back with you
Where it came from on that day
The one I love forever is untrue
And if I could you know that I would
Fly away with you
The breeze along the river seems to say
That he'll only break my heart again should I decide to stay
So, little snowbird, take me with you when you go
To that land of gentle breezes where the peaceful waters flow
