hi there everyone - well tomorrow i get the results from all my tests - i was diagnoised with lung cancer july 2008 and had the top left lobe removed - i was told that all the margins were clear and i needed no further treatment - fantastic - but what a rollercoaster - from being told i had cancer and then being told it had gone was a matter of weeks - any way - in may/june i began with pains in my upper chest area and shoulder - it was extremly painful and no matter what the doctors gave me for the pain it didn't work - i did however manage to get to australia to visit my son for the summer holidays with my twelve year old - i was determind that i was going to get there because i had had to cancell my trip in 2008 two weeks before i was due to fly out - when i returned after having the most fantastic time ever i saw my cancer specialist and she said that she wasn't happy with my xrays and wanted to do more tests - i have had a full body scan - pet scan and brain scan - when i saw her two weeks ago she seemed to think that they might be able to offer me some treatment depending on the results - so fingers crossed - tomorrow seems to have taken a long time to gget here - so i am hoping that i can be given some treatment and begin to fight this bloody thing again - will keep you all posted on what is happening - take care - karen - xoxo
hi - thanks every one for your kind words - i went to see the specialist today - i was told that they had the results back from all the scan and they still weren't happy with the results - the pet scan showed something in my jaw and the lymph node in my chest so they now want me to have a ct scan of the jaw and ultra sound scan and biopsy of the lymph node - and yes - i have to wait for another two weeks for the results - hopefully then they will be able to tell me what they can offer me - they did mention giveing me chemo and radiotheraphy together - which is quiet intense but they feel that it might be my best option - but they cant say for definate - 'we will have to wait and see' - i feel very let down and not looking forward to having to go through all the waiting again - but what can i do? has anyone else heard of or had this treatment? karen - xoxo
hi there everyone - i have had a terrible day today - i am usually very strong minded and dont give into crying - it is just how i am - but today - i have burst into tears for no reason - well there is reasons but nothing happened out of the ordinary to make me feel that way - if you know what i mean - i am so muddled up - i cant believe that i have to wait yet another two bllody week before i know what is going to be happening - i like to have a plan and then i feel as if i am in some sort of partnership with what is going to be happening to me and i can begin to prepare myself for what lays ahead - i think i am a bit of a control freak - but it has always worked for me so i suppose now should be no different - i really dont like this feeling of not being in control - the school holidays are nearly over and i have done nothing at all with my little one - i am going to have to talk to her soon - she is beginning to get really bad tempered and quite moody - i really was hoping to be able to tell her what was happening after my appointment with specialist yesterday - but i know just as much as i did four weeks ago - the waiting part is really the hardest - it was before and it is no different this time around - you dont get used to it at all - my hisband and i are seperated and he suffers from mental health problems so he isn't dealing with this very well at all - however - he has said that if he is ok he will take me shopping tomorrow because the little one needs some new clothes getting and i am unable to drive very far because of the pain - hopefully a bit of retail theraphy will make the little one a little bit happier - we will wait and see - i have told the older children and they think that maybe she needs to know that it has come back - any way i will go for now and hope i have a better daya tomorrow - karen - xoxo
