pre op tomorrow

Well im going to have a busy day tomorrow with my three appointments which means i wont be able to have my wee siesta in the afternoon so no doubt by tea time ill be mummy from hell and it will be take away for tea,mind you i might actually sleep then,i dont know whats wrong with me...well i do,im scared shitless and by bedtime cant sleep and take a pill then sleep half the night then need to sleep by lunchtime for a couple of hours. Ive managed to see some of my friends this week which has been good and we have all been trying to keep the conversations light and breezy which is hard but i cant do doom and gloom at the moment. Went shopping with BF today and bought a book to read in hossie,hate cheap crappy magazines with woe is me celebs who bring on most of there problems themselves,anyway bought BF trainers and was charged twice for the same pair and there till went down during transaction and have to wait 5 days to get the money put back into my account,great eh! I know im lucky and im hoping this cancer has been caught soon enough,but im still scared. I have nothing more to say about myself today but would like to say that i do read as many blogs as possible and i know some of my replys are short and sweet but i do think of a lot of you using this site a lot of the time and my heart goes out to you all. L xx