Do any of you re read your blogs just after typing them,i dont usually but have today and realised just how bad my spelling is or is it my keyboard skills? Anyway i hope that most of you get the jist of my rantings!
After a shit day with the kids (it really was!) my mum came back up to babysit the younger two and i asked my 18 year old to stay in with my mum as im pretty worried about him,he is down to 9 stone and has been sick and upset stomach for about a week now,he had a wee job in a bar at the weekend but has now lost that because of his being late due to upset stomachs ect.
He was on anti d's just after i was diagnosed but they ran out and he didnt go back to the doctor for them,my mum was pretty angry at them all as she said i have to do everything for him when he is 18 and he should be helping himself and me,i only have Monday left before i go in so now im going to have to try take him to the docs for more help.This has been going on for years with him as i was single with them when i fell ill before and he didnt go to school for over a year because of seperation anxiety,i do think its time for some real help for my kids with all this and will try and get something sorted as soon as im able.
managed to throw myself together for the party and just as we were about to leave my wee cat was in the hall playing with something.....a dead baby rat, we all freaked and Billy just came down and thanked him for the present!! Lovely i can think of nicer things for a present!
Made it to the party which was nice but Billy drank far more than i have ever seen him drink,but was in good spirits telling me how much he loved me ect and if he was going to leave us he would have done it long before now,i felt a warm glow and i do love him sooo much and feel lucky to have him beside me through all this.Have never felt so old or fat in a long time,a 21st wasnt the best place to make you feel good about yourself,so we hid in the corner only dancing to oldies like Abba!Got home and decided at 1 am to play with the dogs in the street which my neighbours must have thought i was mad but it felt good!
Up early as bloody usual,why dont my dogs know its the weekend? Going to make myself beautiful for the bbq today then Monday is cleaning and shopping day,then chinese with the kids before i have to fast at midnight.
Hope everyones having a nice weekend,and hope the sun shine (for a change) for our BBQ
Leigh xx
