When i write here i want to be upbeat positive and maybe a little lighthearted. As Sorry guys am on a downer today so i just want to rabble on for a bit to get it off my chest, I hope you dont mind....................
Still sore from the biopsy sick of popping pain killers and I yearn for a long hot shower! Other than that and the fact its dull outside and the family are in their beds for sat morn lie in what should I be moaning about.
My man Gerald is busy in the garden bless him, he wants to get it all nice for me when I come out of hospital so i can hopefully sit in the sun and recuperate. We inherited a very overgrown mess from the dear old lady we bought the house from. I feel useless becasuse i cant be of much help and that gets me down too.
I know i have a lot to be thankful for and my cancer is treatable, but today is one of those days wheni cant shake the blues and i want to cry and feel sorry for myself. There are lot of people in a far worse position than me and so i need give myself a good shake and get on with things.
Theres a cream cake sitting in the fridge and the kettle has just boiled, so for now a little indulgence, hey who cares about flippin calories and diets now, bot me!
Well Im off to shake this, mood and to do something worthwhile today, its still early i have the whole day ahead. :)
Jules xx
