I have not been on the site for ages, i have had 2 intense months caring for my mum. She died on 9th june at home at 64 and my heart is broken. She suffered terribly. I had no help as she was in denial right up until the day before she died when i had to get the district nurses to see her as she became so ill. She had lung cancer which had spread all over her body totalling 22 lumps or tumors including 7 on her head. She had not eaten for months and when she died she was yellow with a liver, water and chest infection. The doctor came out the week before and the anti biotics she had been given never worked but being sick daily she probably never kept them down anyway. I suppose i should feel some relief that she is not suffering anymore but i am devasted and cannot get the picture out of my head of when she died which was horrible not peaceful as i was told it would be. How you ever come to terms with the loss? it feels like the end of the world.
