Hi All 1st day here so here goes

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Hi

1st time at this trying to get my head round the fact that the doctor has told me I have the big C. Feel a bit of a fraud at the mo as feel and look fine all a bit surreal. Was watching the England match with my boys but have given up watching as pants !!! lol

Anyway story so far, found a lump under my arm a few weeks ago popped to the docs on the insistance of my partner was reffered to the breast clinic, week later mamagram scan and biopsy( bit surprised thought they were going to laugh me away) week later popped back to have a chat and BANG sorry we have found secondary cancerous cells in 3 areas of the Lyph nodes cant see the primary on the mammagram so time for a MRI and CAT scan- had yesterday and results week today- day I am of to Edinburgh with the girls for a blinding hen weekend. Anyway decided only course of action was to go and buy shoes :)

So not sure what to expect next week so we will see fingers crossed but unfortunalty for the big C it has picked the wrong :) Oh well until next time xxx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thank you to you all for all your lovely comments :) Will def be facing this with an attitude not to be reckoned with!!lol

    6 days till results the we will see what we do from there though I have heard that sometimes in these cases the secondary has dispersed and they just have to deal with the secondary so you never know. Have had a lot of cancer in the family on my mums side but genentic testing wasn't needed so they said got that worng ha ha

    Shoes and Harvey Nicks will def be on the agenda along with copious amounts of bubbly next weekend so cant wait

    As soon as I have more news will let you all know. Its lovley to have people to talk to that are not family and friends as feel I can be more honest re my feelings rather than trying to protect them

    Take Care be back soon

    Love Ericalouise xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Well step one completed. Had my surgery on Tuesday( left side masectomy and lyphnode clearance) and came home yesterday. One drain left in until Monday when i will pop back to the hospital and then review meeting on Friday to arrange start of chemo etc. Very little pain and have already managed a hairwash and shower with big help from Ian who has been magnificient through all of this. I strangely feel a lot calmer now I think knowing we have removed the source and we can fight this. I am a typical Essex girl as far as hair looks clothes etc are concerned but actually you know what I'm not as shallow as I though lol xx

    Take Care and Love too all

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Day 5 after 1st chemo session and have been shopping and guess what bought shoes !!!!!!!!!!! yippee.

    Not a good start major probs with sickness and had to return the next day for fluids and intravenous anti sickness but they have promised to try to fix for next time. Have to admit nearly threw in the towel as me and being sick is not a good mixture plus food already tastes vile but then again will help with the weight loss no seriously it was reminding myself that so many others are having a far worse time than me with such bravory that I have no right to feel sorry for myself. Well of to work tomorrow and then a lovely wedding on Friday and with my own hair !!! 2nd cycle the 17th so will pace myself till then.

    Love and Hugs to all xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hair Today Gone Tomorrow ?????

    2nd Fec on Tuesday and looks like the hair isn't going to be taking this trip with me even with the Paxman. Not patchy yet but coming out in handfulls!!! Weird as it seems to make all this suddenly real :(

    I have my wigs at the ready being the Diva I am but suddenly this has all become really scary. Bar the 1st week I have really been ok since the last chemo, working and going out and doing all the things I always do bar being a bit extra tired and the mouth thing. Now I am worrying that no 2 will not be as kind?

    Time to kick myself and get back in the positive zone

    Take Care C Friends hope this finds you all doing well keep strong

    xxxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    2nd Fec not nice with hallucinations of all things and unable to lift my head for 4 days just slept but getting back to normal now. Hair gone now but actually was far less stressfull than I thought a relief really that another part of the journey is over!

    1st day with my wig today and all remarks were really positive at the office with some even commentating about being at the hairdressers LOL :)

    Going to make the most of the next 12 days until I face no 3

    Love and Hugs to All

    erica xxxx