Debs Daily Deliberations 115

Evening All, Firstly thank you to everyone who left me good wishes on my anniversary blog, they were much appreciated. Well the anniversary went really well until about 9.30pm....... watched the latest Indiana Jones film - good, the whole family in the same room for an hour or so, but I could whiff......doggy toilet, figured one of them had bad wind but when Lara went upto bed and used the bathroom, Ollie had been before her. Now whilst he should be congratulated on using the bathroom and not a bedroom.....a big ole turd on the carpet is not what I had in mind! Oh and it gets worse, around 10.15pm he starts gagging, Sean drags him to the hall which is tiled, several times but nothing, in the end I throw a towel down by him and he promptly shows me everything he has eaten that day.....yum NOT! However, he did sleep in till 6am again, I got up and everyone else slept on, 2 loads of laundry, garden cleared of poop before anyone else raised a dreamy head from their pillow. Once up Tony and Sean cooked a full English breakfast which Tony, Lara and myself ate outside on the patio, the boys thought it was too cold and ate inside. Tony had a grading at his club at lunchtime, Lara was off fishing with her friend Joe, Sean was out playing badminton and even Jack our nocturnal one ventured out in daylight with some "mates"....in fact Tony and I bumped into them in Tesco's later and Jack looked decidedly uncomfortable, later I asked if he was worried we would show him up "well Mum you are likely to shout out - bring on the trumpets and embarass me"....me......would I.............well yes I do text it to him and put it on facebook sometimes just to annoy him - ah the simple pleasures in life ;) Tony decided that as we will be eating healthily with plenty of veg next week due to my chemo cycle he wanted - burger and chips for tea. So I made the burgers myself, added crispy pancette and that nasty plastic cheese for those who like it - I detest it, it is NOT cheese and I think a campaign should be started for real cheese only! Been a bit touchy today and its because I am having my first MRI since brain surgery tomorrow, not overly worried about the scan itself, no I don't enjoy them, yes I am a bit claustrophic, no I don't like the silly contraption they put on my head but........mostly I am worried about them finding a vein to inject the contrast, bearing in mind what my bloodtests have been like. Naturally I am most anxious that maybe the tumour has started to regrow......silly of course but you can't help yourself thinking the worst can you. My sister is off work for the week so she is taking me, I will take my anti-nausea tablet before the scan and then pop my poison after.....Kim my SNON suggested it would be better to take it after the scan as once I am on the table who knows how I will feel. Hopefully we will stop off for lunch on the way home. Took the dogs for a walk tonight and Lara came with us - always a drama when she is there, she does try but...........we were over the common which is flanked by a large ditch....no water at this time of year but its deep with high reeds and weeds, well Tony, Dexter and Ollie were one side and Lara and myself were still walking to the crossing point when Lara calls Ollie.......you know whats coming dont you.....yep he literally jumped into the ditch and disappeared....I looked at Tony, he looked at me and slid down and grabbed him. No sooner had he let go than Ollie jumped back in......this time Lara slid into the ditch and pulled him up our side and he trotted back to the crossing point....me I just figured why jump in when everyone else was - clever mama ;) Back home, filled out my MRI questionnaire.....and been looking at the Royal Marsden, whilst I am competely happy with my treatment, they are cancer specialists and Queen's don't do any clinical trials......gold standard treatment all the way. I just don't want to get to the point where not much can be done....and find if I moved over earlier I may have been offered alternatives, also the neuro-oncologist has a really good bio with regards to brain tumour treatments.........food for thought. Thought for today: We are drowning in information but starved for knowledge. John Naisbitt