My husbands glands on both side of his neck were still uncomfortable so Leukaemia man sent us for a CT scan just to rule out anything sinister but most likely it was as a result of the CLL - nothing to worry about Yeah Right !! Visit GP too as the pain is becoming worse around the neck - she urged us to contact for scan results. I knew at this point that we were in for something more sinister but my darling husband was…
I'm just not happy with hubby's breathing. My mind is going into overdrive and I'm convinced that the cancer has spread. I'm trying to keep a lid on things but why does everything take so damn long. The week before his neck dissection I noticed he was a little short of breath, not all the time, just now and again. I mentioned it to him and he hadn't noticed (now there is a surprise!) Why are men so…
There have been so many times I have wanted to write more about my husband's cancer experience but things change almost on a daily basis post treatment and it's difficult to comprehend one state before moving onto another. It's all logged in my brain somewhere - hopefully, although much of the onslaught I wish to forget.
September 2013 saw us being collected by the laundry machine of the wonderful NHS and…
It's been almost a week since we got the worst news possible.
It's been a long week - filled to the brim with emotion, love, strength, stress and a million and one other things that I'm too tired to write down. My head has a sort of running commentary on the situation, there is never a single minute of the day that I am not thinking about the fact that my husband is dying.
I have had some stress in our lives…
He's doing really well. He feels like complete and utter sh*t but in his own quiet way he has accepted the inevitable. No anger, no regrets, no bitterness. He tells me twenty times a day that he loves me and I love him. He holds my hand whilst I cry, he advises me on my bleak and miserable future without him.
No topic has been off limits. He's so brave. We've sorted general funeral stuff out. We've made decisions…
