I live in New Zealand - 3 days ago Christchurch was rocked by a terrible earthquake - currently there are 103 dead - over 200 missing and over 120 in serious condition in hospital. It is surreal.
Amazing really how things in life affect you. Amazing really how your thoughts wander at a time like this.
I am facing cancer - and very scared - but suddenly I am really grateful that whatever the news from my next tests are - I have time. Time to come to terms with this - no matter how hard - time to get my affairs in order - time (if it comes to that) to say goodbye.
As I watch the continuing news bulletins I have the exact same feelings of waiting for test results when the signs are bad - It is excruiatingly hard - necessary but hard - Time is going too slow - things can seem so futile!
The rescuers - just like the doctors are doing the absolute best they can - it is frustrating and sometimes they are the ones that we vent our anger on - and when waiting for answers, it is never good or fast enough. They are human and wish us no ill - sometimes they have no choice but to be the bearer of bad news.
I can only hope that as things progress for me that I can hang on to this feeling that no matter how bad things are for me - there is also someone worse off than me.
