I have to get up early tomorrow for a trip to the hospital for my CT scan. The appointment is at 9.15 but I will have to get up before 8 so I can drink the Gastrografin in preperation for the scan. For anyone who hasnt tasted this (you are very lucky) it tastes of watery aniseed and I hate it. It reminds me of Sambuca and thats not pleasant first thing in the morning. I have to mix the gastro with a pint of cold water and sip one cupful every 15 minutes until its all gone.
If you look back through my bloggings you will see that I get very nervous around scan time which I know alot of you do too and I was very very nervous last time as I was convinced something was wrong.,..turned out it wasnt. This time I am very very very very very very nervous and this is due to the fact that I have had some lumps reappear just above my collarbone, where they were before I started the Herceptin a year ago. I could sit here and pretend its nothing and that everything will be ok as it has been for the past year but if I did that I would be kidding myself. I know what this means and I dont need a scan to tell me which is one of the pitfalls of being able to feel lumps where there shouldnt be lumps!! Hence my title...I do believe miracles do happen and very much so in the unpredictable world of cancer so until Monday (results day) I will be hoping and praying that I am wrong...now that will be a miracle!!
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