coming apart at the seams

Well its been 10 days today since i was told that my liver cancer might not be curable. You ask what have they done NOTHING yeah i cant believe it either, I have phoned them telling them how stressed i am, The secretary didnt even know who i was so i told her everything and she was going to sort it out, Well still nothing, what am i supposed to tell my kids the doctors dont give a shit. I'm sorry none of this is making sence to me its just me rambling on i cant see an end, I feel like a deflated ball a shell of the normal me i have always been up beat positive and happy go lucky but the last few days have really taken there toll on me physically and mentally. I really am trying to find my PMA (positive mental attitude) Will keep you all posted if and when i get that call from the hospital love and hugs from a deflated bus driver xxxxx