This time last year all of our hope and dreams were dashed as the consultant so calmly said to Bert " you have active leukaemia in you blood just go home you will be lucky if you have a couple of weeks left" Why do they have to deliver such bad news in such an unforgiving way. I think if Bert had been fit enough he would have thumped the Dr. Not for what he had to say but how he said it.
He never wanted to know the prognosis right from the beginning and after 18 months of keeping it from him this man single handedly told him. Bert never forgave him for it. I still cant forgive him I know that to them it is "just their job" but it was our lived he was destroying and while I am aware that it was the leukeamia it didn't help Bert. He was never the same, The "Quality" time we were suppose to have we never got as he went downhill so quickly when the leukaemia spread to his spleen and his brain. He never knew me before he died his last words to me were "excuse me Can I speak to my wife please" when I told him I was his wife he completely lost it and had to be sedated, He never never woke up after that,
I often wonder when these memories will go away and the good ones will return.
Love to all
From Teri
