I am stunned by the speed of it all, I went to the breast clinic last wednesday 12th August 2009 thinking it was nothing serious, just a fatty mass or those damned over active milk ducts again! 3 hours, a scan and 2 fine needle biopsies later I have been told its almost certainly cancer and I am having an operation on the 15th September, crying and clutching my very sore breast because the pathologist hit a nerve! and my little orange breast cancer booklet I was the last one in the clinic. I have no idea how I got home that drive is a total blurrr.
I had to phone the breast care nurse on the friday to confirm what was said to me, asked her how sure they were that it was cancer! She said they were very sure and very worried by the results in the clinic, something about grading the cells 0-5 mine were/are a 4!?
I have had some really dark moments, but I have been more positive than negative, some people keep saying how brave I am, I don't feel brave, I just dont have a choice, I have to keep going, I dont have time to be ill, I start a new job on the 1st sept! These 3 weeks were supposed to be a holiday, I was going to go away on a retreat and learn how to relax and be me!
We become very knowledgable very fast with this disease don't we? I want to know everything I can, the worst moment was the 1st scan, the doctor turned the screen away and said nothing, I was really quite cross about that. It's me this is about how dare you exclude me!
I do glitter tattooing and face painting at weekends, my 12 year old daughter asked "if you loose your hair mummy can I put a glitter tattoo on your head?" Of course she can lol if all else fails there is always glitter.
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Hi Anna, so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I was diagnosed with bc nearly six years ago, thankfully it hadn't spread and I am hoping to get the 'all clear' next month when I stop Tamoxifen. The reason I am telling you this is to let you know there is light at the end of the tunnel. It is very frightening, but I'm sure you will get loads of support on here from people who understand completely what you are going through. Let me know how it goes at the docs for you. You can send me a PM if you want to chat, you are more than welcome. Best wishes to you, Christine xx
Well today was quite a day, I wanted it to come but I didn't, I am sure if you are reading this you will know exactly what I mean. I have to have a mastectomy of my right breast, 16 weeks of chemo, 5 weeks of radio therapy and maybe some hormone treatment! I have no idea how to deal with this, just one day and step at a time I think is the best policy........
Hi Anna, I know exactly what you mean. Now you know what you have to deal with you will get on with it. No-one knows how to deal with this when we are hit with it, but we deal with things in our own way. I wish you all the very best for your forthcoming surgery and subsequent treatment. I hope it isn't too hard for you. Keep us posted on how things are going for you and remember you are not alone. Thinking of you, Christine xx
When I was told the same as you it seemed that the treatment would go on for ever but the time went so quickly.
You will meet some great folks along the way and all in the same boat. Am in touch with several of my "chemo club". We used to have a laugh together about hating hair adverts and were able to compare symptoms.
The nurses could not understand why we were all laughing but if we didn't we would cry.
You will cope and get strength you did not realise you had.
Hope the surgery is soon. Get that b*****y tumour out.
