Sorry its been late informing you of what happened....
So last Thursday morning we go off to the hospital to see the MHT....very good on arrival, only waited 5mins, and we were a bit early.
Two guys sat asking Dave how he was feeling and what they think would benefit him.....up the Mirtazapine to 45mg.....do you agree David.."well yes, whatever you say". In steps the angry, frustrated cant believe this shite wife.
Firstly, I want to know what is it that you actually want to achieve with David, because from where Im sitting its ..fuck all. Last night he was so distressed about this appointment because he thought you would say he is ok to go back to work, followed by a sleepless night for both of us. He cant make a bloody simple decision of what to wear. The thought of returning to his job with the wellfare of ex amount of men and machinery was just too much...
Ah, you rang with concerns last week Mrs....... Yes I did, I am at my wits end, I appreciate the need for the pills but not happy that you are going to up them again, Why !!!! then what !!!!!!
Well Dave had told them he got very angry with me for being in his way, not that I noticed much cos I always get in the way......well he did do a big sigh and walk out of the room. They asked if he was violent towards me because of it....NO HE WASNT. They then said "so you feel that David benefitted from the counselling, we dont do counselling, our aim is to make sure he will not harm himself or others and feel he needs to have pills upped to get him to a happy mood. We are happy with Dave and will discharge him from our team today.
WHAT JUST HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!........ok now Im not happy, where is the back up plan, so he just has pills to sit on the end of the sofa spaced out...not bloody likely.
After a few more choice words this is MY plan for Dave and they agreed. Strike one for the wife.
Daves anger can rise from calm to flaming red haze in a split second so cant go back to work yet, they agree...... Not happy about the pills but if I feel he is too spaced out I can ring them to have them reduced again, they agree. .......He needs counselling as well as the pills, they finally agreed.....
We also agreed between the four of us that Macmillan should be first port of call as he is struggling with the way he has been left after his horrendous surgery, so rang Deb to get him in (he told me this morning that I was meant to ring her yesterday, he forgot) and will ring her Monday now to see whats happening there. Next should be berievement counselling, still cant get over the sudden loss of his brother (this also comes to play with work, they worked side by side for over 35yrs) and have asked him before to do that one. Angermanagement if after the other two he is no better.
I feel let down, Dave feels sod all. He is becoming acceptent ...is that a word....of things their not doing, but I wont give up. He is talking to me more about how he is really feeling and thats a big step for him.
Together we will do it, cos Im not going away, I love you, you bad tempered, stroppy, frustrating, messy 6'2" shell of the man I married. MY DAVID. X
Feeling strong guys, and that is down to you lot ((((((((((((Mac Family))))))))))))) cos when I feel like shit and want to cry, and do cry you are there with a shoulder, a tissue, words of comfort, hugs and much much more to help me on my bumpy road.
A BIG THANK YOU xxxxxx
