We all have them, even when we’re fit, healthy people but when you have cancer, the bad days are evil. Having leukaemia has not only invaded my body but my whole life.
At first the bad days were easy to handle.. I could talk my brain into believing that everything was going to be ok.. that there was life after cancer. I honestly, maybe stupidly thought I would get through this and go back to my old life .. my job…
I really don’t know why I’m putting myself through all this crap.
In the beginning I was fighting to get my life back to some normality, get back to work and carry on as normal...
haha .... then I lost my job (incapability of doing my job),
Ok so maybe fate was sending me in a different direction ... these things happen for a reason. I still have my house,family and friends to live for....
Jeez now I really…
So many times I’ve logged on to write something on my blog or to ask a question on the sites and my mind goes mad with thoughts that I just cannot put into words. I read what other people are going through and I end up with all these emotions coarsing through me and I log off without writing a word. My family and friends have always said I’m the sensitive one, I like to help people, I like to show them that life…
The last two months have been so chaotic that I have had to remind myself that the reason for all this mess in my life is because I’m fighting for my life. This isn’t just a quick stop in hospital and it will all go away illness... if only!!
Getting to the point of being able to have my SCT in October was a challenge I quite happily took on and when I finally heard the words were going ahead with it, I felt…
My instant thought was this has to be a sign..to get an appointment to see my favourite haematologist at Kings hospital on the eve of my diagnosis last year. With all the crap I’d gone through with my ruptured appendix, major surgery, etc this past few months and not being able to have my chemo injections because of it... I need some good news.
She explained that considering what I’ve been through my bloods…
