I was right , i just wish i was wrong, sometime to much knowledge is not helpful, im talking time scale, but as family and children dont know im not going to say on here, but its not long, so all eventualities covered for if children cant cope , everything in place for my hubby , but if im honest what about me, im fine with all practicalities but it keeps hitting me in waves , i went shopping today put new cd on as i do in car really loud, it was madonnas new cd and it hit me, all these songs were when we first got together ,i couldnt listen to very many songs or i couldnt see where i was driving, i am sleeping which also worries me, but this is what hubby wants, as is still worrying about me, bless him and no he doesnt know time scale either, but he knows how poorly he is, but every time he even coughs i just fly out of bed, it would be funny if it wasnt so serious,
He is also struggling mentally with his brain mets, ive not told him just pretend its me mumbling ect when he cant hear me properly , i just dont want to hurt him, or anyone else, macmillan nurse knows though, i cried on her shoulder yesterday , i also woke up crying in my sleep which was horrible ,
INLAWS dont even mention them , no i havent told them and dont intend to, they are hear daily anyway and i couldnt even give hubby a kiss when i got home as they wouldnt move from their seats for that, well next time i will not be moving from by his side for them and yes like the kind person i am i move every time and let them have their space, but if they cant even let me kiss him well they can go jump, must go as needed if time i will finish this tommorow xxx
