Our Journey: The story so far..part 3

Now my poor darling has to be brave and start this battle to defeat the tumours in his body! I know he will win! His strong will and determination will not allow failure! The word doesn't exist in his dictionary! Go darling go!! He had his first chemo that afternoon. It was a very emotional day, moreso for my brave husband who was the one who had to go through all this. His reaction to the news was mixed. At that time I could only imagine that he was relieved to be back on the clinical trial but apprehensive about starting the treatment. It was all getting a bit too real at that point!!  The thoughts were rushing through his head. He spoke to his brother on the phone and I heard him say that it's the thought of what is actually happening to his body, what is going to happen and the fact that he would be feeling bad for at least a year! I squeezed his hand tightly and we shared a silent moment where we both new we were in this together through the highs and the lows! On this day 9 months before we had exchanged our wedding vows..the words in sickness and in health were very real at that moment and I meant every word..time to deliver! The nurses at the hospital are terrific! They have been all the way through! They've given so much support and guided us both through the process, setting the scene of what is to come. They've been open and honest about everything and that is appreciated by both of us! It has removed some of the fear and uncertainty surrounding all this. Going into the first treatment it was clear that the drugs would make him ill; that it was to be a cumulative effect meaning the more treatment he had the worse he would feel. Some people might disagree with this approach believing ignorance is bliss. Not us though! It was and still is important to us to know what we are faced with so we can rise to the challenge! I am in constant awe of my husband throughout all of this. He rarely dwells on how this is affecting him. I hear him talking to people and even when we talk together he's constantly thinking of me..how it's affecting me..what I must be thinking seeing another beloved family member go through this. Likewise I'm constantly thinking of him..how he's doing..what he's going through..what can be done to make things easier for him! I guess that's the key really and why we're so water tight! My Auntie wrote in our wedding card the key to a successful marriage is to always put your partner first! It's so true and we do that every day! What a wise lady she is..thanks Auntie G you know who you are and you're the best and we love you dearly!!