one day at a time's blog

hi i just wanted to say i am absolutely over the moon i can't believe that something positive has actually happened in my life (i know that sounds quite negative) but if any one has read my previous blogs i feel as though my family has been through it since april. the good news i have had is my mum's endoscopy today showed nothing sinister NO CANCER which is fantastic. it has been a really stressful day, going back into…

hi all, i just wondered i know were all different and we cope different but my dad passed away on thursday morning i loved my dad very much and i am glad i listened to lots of you on here (i started to tell him i loved him about 2 weeks before he died). whats bothering me is that i'm feeling numb i am totally in a daze, i haven't showed any emotion yet, if i think about my dad i feel like a shutter is being pulled down…

i never expected to be writing this so soon, i thought i was coping quite well and that when it eventually happened i would be very well prepared, but i think i was only just coming to terms with the diagnosis, my special dad survived 3 months and 2 days since his gastroscopy (the day of diagnosis). on wednesday night i gave him some oral pain relief kissed him goodnight and told him i loved him, so did my older brother…

hi its my birthday today i am 36 wow, i am a little tipsy after my 3 glasses of rose (i don't drink very often) i have had an awful day my dad is so poorly in the last week he has had his stent fitted but has deteriated fast, his orriginal oesophagus tumour has managed to spread to his liver and lungs, he now has ascites looking 9 months pregnant, and he is pleasantly confused he can take approx 20 steps he is so breathless…

i have just spoken to my mum my dads stent is insitu it was put in this afternoon he is taking sips of water and looking forward to getting up and about so thats really good news, he hasn't had a drink since saturday so he is enjoying the water. i don't know if i have mentioned it before but my sister in law is my dads temporary oncology specialist nurse and she is fab, not just with my dad but everyone she go's that…