Ok so this is my first time ever doing a blog. where to begin. ahem.
So my partner and I have an appointment with his oncologist on Tues next week (usual check up) and I am (privately) bricking it. Gosh they make me anxious. I am a little worried as my partner has found a lump under his nipple, right where he had shingles. The lump feels sorrt of hard and flat, whereas the lumps in his neck are round small and hard. But I am scared his cancer has spread. I don't tell him this, I make sure I am positive without being patronising, supportive and try to ease his worries as much as possible.
I feel like crying. But I am at work so I can't. I feel sick with fear about what the doctor will say on Tuesday.
ok boo hoo me time over. Sorry , I just had to let it all out.
Firstly welcome to this site and to the blog area, we all have to start at some time, for me it was my first blog ever on 23/09/10 a couple of days after being diagnosed with bladder cancer, since then the site tells me i have made 74 entries! i didnt know i had that much waffle in me! it hasnt improved my spelling either.
I am sorry that you find yourself having to be here, and indeed the wait for results seems to affect us all, the days have never moved so slowly in your life before, i know ive been there, all i can say is try not to dwell on all the horrible things it might be, try and stay positive, i know more easy said than done right, and bear in mind todays advances in treatments means that most things can and are treatable with much better results than in the past.
If you feel like a cry, then let it go, i know i have many times since that day (please read some of my blogs if you have time) maybe you will feel not alone in how you feel now.
Used too talk to you on another thread and you vanished! So good to hear from you even though the circumstances are awful. The feelings you are having are completely understandable, always something to worry about, I even worry if I'm not worrying! Fingers crossed for Tuesday.
You are being very strong and supportive for your partner which is lovely but you are right to let your feelings out and this is the place to come. I hope everything goes well on Tuesday. Please let us know.
