Woah, what a week this has been! Its now day 7 of FEC chemo!! Day 4 (Tuesday) of chemo was rough and day 5 (Wednesday) the worse so far! I cried and felt so angry and sorry for myself!! My appetite is zero and my mouth feels like I've drank a shed load of alcohol! Im brushing my teeth gently and regularly and using Oraldene mouthwash to try and help keep the ulcers at bay. The steroids for the sickness drove me bonkers! I was exhausted from general fatigue and insomnia, but felt like I was on speed from the steroids! My legs were trembling and I was shaking like a leaf inside and out. The nurses will review my need for steroids with chemo number 2. I'm not generally a sickly person, so I would rather do without and just take the general anti sickness tablets they prescribed, if I need them. I took a sleeping tablet (zopiclone) on Wednesday night as I was desperate to sleep and although I only got about four hours, it made such a difference. I took one last night and eventually dropped off for four hours again, yay!! I worry about getting hooked on drugs like that, but the need is greater than the worry right now!! Another side affect for me has been the "runs"!!! I've always been regular, but didn't go for three days then bam, boosh, literally!!! I'm not eating much, but whatever goes in comes out as a splosh, lol!!! My temperature is fine and I'm drinking lots of water and lemon and ginger tea, so the fabulous nurses are just monitoring me. Ginger and lemon tea and ginger biscuits are my constant companions these days! So far, no hair thinning, but as you can see from my picture, my wig is groomed and ready to go!! It was great having my daughter, Sam, here for a few days - she wouldn't let me lift a finger and I gave in to it, which was not like the old me! She came down with a cold though on Wednesday, so it was the right time for her to go yesterday as I can't risk picking up any infections. I feel stronger, rested and better physically and emotionally today and am even considering going out for a little drive in the glorious sunshine later. As horrible as its been, I've overcome some really low days and here I am emerging like a butterfly ready to embrace my good days with a great big smile on my face!! As the song goes "the sun will come out tomorrow" and it has!
