So today is Day 10 of my 63 Day treatment plan... I'm now half way through week two and so relieved!
It’s not been easy, but I’ve managed … I’ve been put on a course of Chemotherapy called BEP which is a 21 day course, the reason mine is for 63 days is because I’m having 3 cycles…
As far as today goes, I actually feel really good…. I went out to the shops on my own today, only for half an hour but I felt like I actually achieved something…
The first 3 days of the treatment I spent visiting the day unit, getting the chemo and sitting there for hours on end bored out of my brain…. But!! It wasn’t what I expected at all, the staff are amazing, so friendly and lively… the unit itself, I expected to be really ‘morbid’…. I suppose it’s an idea I had in my head, which was totally wrong!!
Its separate to the actual hospital, attached to the car park nearly, the ‘ward’ itself is a huge circular room, massive windows… really bright and airy! It has a little patio out the back, with plants and a bench... it’s just so nice, and so welcoming!
I turned up yesterday for my top-up injection and the Ward Sister was stood at the door, me and mum went running in, it was hammering it down with rain.. I was wearing shorts and t-shirt…. And the Sister said to me… “Morning Jack, I see you’ve come dressed for the occasion & you’ve brought this wonderful weather with you” & its people like that you need at times like these, abit of normality... not people feeling awkward around you, & not knowing what to say!!
After the initial 3 days, it kind of went downhill from there, I wasn’t sick or hospitalized or anything dreadfully awful…… I was just totally & utterly exhausted, it drained every ounce of strength out of me for the following few days, all I did was sleep and eat… the eating part was good, because anybody who knows me… knows I like to eat! & I’m the perfect weight for me height so I can’t really afford to lose any!!!
I’ve genuinely never felt exhaustion like it, I probably slept 18-20 hours a day… & the wasn’t the worst part…. Constantly feeling bloated, literally like a Balloon!
BUT! Today, I feel good….. I feel really good, I can’t seem to stop eating, which at this moment in time has surely got to be good??
I’m say here digging into a family size bag of Doritoes whilst watching Come Dine with Me, feeling really positive about the coming weeks & I know roughly what to expect from it all now …. & I'm not so scared anymore....
