I had to write a blog now because this may make you smile!!! Summit my 2 year old Border Colle and I are in my front room watching the World sheep dog trials on the TV, Ok what is funny about that....well....my stupid dog who can't find her own bum let alone herd sheep is on the sofa bolt up right watching the sheep dogs and her head keeps going from side to side and up and down and her ears are doing the same, now my dog is not wired up right but then again she take after me but I must be honest I haven't seen anything that funny for ages and it is so good to forget for a moment about having cancer and dying just crying with laughter at my best loyal buddy glued to the television. I wonder if she knows that is what she should be doing? but I doubt it!!!!!!!!! Love and hugs to all......Carol xx
I am not dying of cancer, I am living with it
Well I really managed to strain myself and went out to the club with my daughter last Saturday. 7.30 came and that is when my body tells me to crash out on the sofa with my dog and chill but I made myself get ready to go and swing my pants at the nightclub and I even had a drink, I tell you, there is no stopping me!!!!! As usual I was kissed and cuddled most of the night and my doorcrew were very pleased to see me, all I got was when was I going back to work (Oh I wish) and of course those words that drive me crazy "You look so well, has it gone?" or "You will beat it" Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! The next day I even cooked myself a roast but after that I was fit for nothing!!!! I walk my dog everyday and on Wednesday I found some woods close to where I live and we went on an adventure trouble is I couldn't find an exit so out from a hedge I staggered covered in leafs and twigs, very becoming!!!! Yesterday my mate of nearly 40 years turned up and he took me and the dog down to the woods where I used to power walk 4 times a week, we walked several miles and he held my hand thoughout which was nice but this guy who used to be a Hells Angel has been a big part of my life, there has never been anything between us except close friends and we love eachother dearly as friends, bless him he loves to hold me and gets upset because he knows he will loose me at some point but that is another special memory we have. Karl my son moved out to be with his girlfriend which is fine so now it is me Mrs Dolittle and all the animals, I do get lonely sometimes and wish I had that someone special in my life but that isn't to be after Kev, I don't regret throwing him out because my cancer was too much for him to bare but this is not a time you want to be alone but hey ho I like me and I love my animals so that will have to do. I hope to go body boarding again soon before it gets too cold and I have decided to have a bash at this steep hill which has stopped me doing my favourite walk and if I do that I shall be some chuffed with myself. I am feeling really well at the moment and will be seeing my onc on the 15th so I have to see what he says and just keep going. Right guys I need a bucket of tea. Love and hugs to all....Carol x
Well I decided to visit the hairdresser for the first time in 3 years and had a trim and a thinning out and blonde streaks put in and it looked pretty good and gave me a great lift. Next came the body boarding...oh yeah...my next door neighbour text me to say that conditions for body boarding was spot on, within 5 mins I had my wetsuit on and was knocking on his door and off we went to Polzeath beach and I managed one and a half hours in the sea. Several times I smacked myself around the head with the board and ran over a bloke but besides that it was great fun and the sea was so warm. my wetsuit is a little baggy around my butt but that wasn't a problem. We didn't have a waterproof camera with us so there are no pics but there are some on my profile or home page, just the same except I have more hair and a different colour and a baggy bum!!!!!. Did I suffer for going body boarding...yep but it was worth it and I can't wait to go again. On Monday my dog Summit dragged me out for a walk or so she thought it was but actually she was off to the vets to be spade!!!! Not a happy dog and oh did she make me feel bad that night, the house was so quiet without her and I was so worried about her but all went well. I had hoped that having her spade would quiet her down but NO CHANCE, she is as mad as ever and having her stiches out tomorrow, so think of me being dragged down the road in the morning!!!!! Love and hugs to all...The mad Kezzerbird...Carol xx
I was thinking today ( oh my brain hurts!!!!!) and today was another good day and not alot has gone on but my daughter popped in and her 3 girls went mad when they saw me .... they only saw me last week!!!!! Smiles and kisses being thrown in my direction from 3 little people who I adore, how rich am I. Then later on being in my birdroom with my 2 blue and gold Macaws and we had a sing song and a dance together (how sad am I ) and of course my Kezzer the Chickenbird (African Grey) climbed up on my shoulder and yelled in my ear, loving words floated through the air like "Are you alright mate" followed by a string on swear words. Lovely parrot!!!!! I went and lay on the sofa and my looney 2 year old collie curled up beside me and then the Boots delivery driver spoilt the moment by banging the door to which Summit went bonkers at!!!!!!! For me it is the simple things in life that make me happy, I may be dying but oh at last I am living. I stick my two fingers up to cancer and I stick me bum up to it too ( for those who don't know I have a "Cancer can kiss my arse" tatoo on my bum) COZ I am a chilled Kezzerbird. Love and hugs to all....Carol xx
I was on the old What now site when diagnosed in March 2008 with Ovarian cancer, I can tell you this site has saved my life and kept me going time and time again after 28 chemos, being totally gutted and left with a stoma, secondaries and now off treatment because it makes me too ill and takes away my quality of life, if I could have treatment I would but I am happy with my lot and done some crazy things since cancer struck and in between the hard hopeless days there have been many good days and today I got my motorbike MOT'd and am back on the road and I feel more alive today than ever. So when you get those days of hopelessness and dispare remember somewhere inside there is a strength you never knew you had. Look out world the Kezzer keeps boucing back. Love and hugs to all...Carol x
I am not dyng of cancer, I am living with it
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