Sorry to bring this up ...

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It has been a slightly unusual week this week, internets. I don't necessarily say better; just different. Which I suppose is good in itself. Apart from the food poisoning ...

We set out with a Plan. Judy was going to take me to chemo on Tuesday, bring me back, then go up to Penny's for the rest of the week, to help her with the funeral arrangements and getting the sorting on the house started. Lynn was going to come up after work on Thursday evening, go to work from here on Friday morning, and then spend the weekend, so that I wasn't in the house on my own for too long. And Wednesday I'd planned to take the bus into Oxford and ... I dunno, look at stuff, since I can't afford to do anything else much.

It started out okay. I got my bloods done on Monday, and we rolled up at chemo, as scheduled, on Tuesday. Boss nurse Rose sent me to sit down, and told us they were trying a new system. I don't know what the new system is, but it doesn't seem to be much of an improvement on the old system, there was still an hour's wait before anything happened. And, as usual, the pre-meds knocked me out, so I slept through most of the actual treatment. Which is a pity, really. As I've said before, chemo is now the main (often the only) social event on my calendar, to the extent that I've started dressing nicely for it, and putting all my jewellery on. A full set of jewellery, that is; not all the jewellery I possess. Obviously. Else I wouldn't be able to lift my head up for all the earrings. When I start putting on make-up for it, we'll know I have a real problem.

Somewhere in amongst all the excitement (I use the term loosely), the chemo team arranged for the district nurse to do my bloods and dressing changes in future, and sent us home with a big bag of ... stuff. Blood-taking and dressing-changing stuff I assume, I don't know. Let's see how that goes. Seamlessly, I am quite sure. As what does not?

So, anyway, chemo over, and back we came via the pretty way. I went to bed; Judy packed and headed northwards; I got up, had dinner, watched some TV; went to bed again. Got up; threw up; threw up some more; went back to bed.

Rinse and repeat, and add in stomach cramps that eventually turned into the inevitable and, just to crown the joyful moment, a nosebleed that wouldn't quit. Several hours of this had me vaguely worried. If there'd been someone else in the house I would have phoned the 24-hour oncology number; but, if they'd wanted me to come in, (a) how would I have got there, and (b) what about the cats? I daresay we could have found some way around point (a), but point (b) is more or less insuperable, particularly given the nature (generally hostile) of my darling puddytats. I suppose, at a pinch, I could have stuck a note and the spare key through Mrs #10's door - Judy feeds her cat, who is a well-behaved and civilised creature, while she's away - but it would still be difficult. So, no phoning. I put out a plea for help on Facebook, but that wasn't very effective. Not really surprising at four in the morning, I suppose ...

Eh, well. I'm still here, so no harm done. It's just lucky it was no worse, that's all. As it was, the only victim was a perfectly good white nightie, now white no more but steeped in gore. Also typical is that it should happen then, when I've been perfectly fine throughout the rest of this chemo.

Somewhere amongst the general unrest I texted my brother to ask if he could come and see me on Wednesday, and emailed Lynn to ask if she could come down a day early. Tim didn't get my text until midday on Wednesday, by which time it was a bit late, but all I wanted to do by then was sleep anyway, so it didn't matter. And Lynn gets a special gold star for very heroically dropping everything, packing her bags, and coming to my rescue.

I was very glad to see her.

Of course (of course!) I've been fine ever since. Still, it's good to have someone around. Just in case. I do wish there were more people I could depend on, but what'm I going to do, magic up a team of golem? Useful as that might be, I really don't have the wherewithal.

Lynn has just gone home - I hope it wasn't all one-sided, and she enjoyed seeing the cats (Molly has now decided she likes her and lets her stroke her, she said, drowning in pronouns) and spending time in the garden, especially as we've had some lovely weather the past couple of days. Hurrah! for lovely weather, while I'm about it; it makes everything seem less awful. 

Judy should be back soon. And I think I am going for a lie-down.

Oh, we have some good news, for relative values of 'good'. When I staggered round to the Co-op yesterday, I saw that the Polish shop next to Domino's has closed down - so, not good news for Polish people, sorry about that - and there's a sign in the window saying that a pharmacy will be opening there in September. Which will be a pharmacy (just) within walking distance, which is something I very much need.

I only said it was good. I said nothing about exciting. Please: this is me.

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    FormerMember

    Hurray for Lynn and sunshine and the promise of a convenient-ish pharmacy. *Oh bugger* about everything else. I'm sorry you're having a rotten time and send many, many hugs. x x x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Ok, now I am on a computer that does not change my words and understands the concept of paragraphs and spacing.... here we go.

    Thanks for the entertaining read. i feel a bit bad enjoying reading your blog considering the content, but hey I get my thrills where I can these days as the traditional sex and drugs and rock n roll are all off the cards.

    I wish i lived nearer, or you lived nearer so I could a rescue person and also a bit of company and fun for you. Well, fun in the above sense...

    The same thing always happens to P when i leave him alone. He gets ill or cuts himself or axes off his toes or something that he never does when I am on standby with a first aid kit and a car. I guess it is Mr Sod and his Law again. Bugger that he is.

    I had a good snigger at you turning up in all your jewllry which I can't spell. Maybe you could go in to the chemo ward another day and sit and pretend for the social scene... or is that just a tad mad?

    I remember when the highlight of my calendar was the poobaggers picnic. I do get to go to the ball again, but before you think you are missing all the fun, I was in the car driving home by 9.30pm as I didn't really want to kill a lot of people on the A40 on such an auspicious day as ems's birthday.

    Hoorah for a pharmacy. We got a Joules. Stupid clothes at stupid prices. We do have a boots and superdrug and an independent pharmacy all within walking distance as well as the one at the surgery so I'm spoilt for choice. You really should move here!

    I am talking drivel like I thought I would so will shut up.

    I wish I could do something to improve your lot but there isn't much I can do over the internet.... except send hugs. So have some hugs. Lots of them.

    Little My xxxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hey Hilary,

    I too liked the dress up for chemo and all the jewellery, I imagined you swanning regally in :)

    EEk the nosebleeds and food poisoning, you'll have Vanish coming to sponsor you next and promise to have everything whiter than white.

    Another great similarity we possess.....hmmmm how long can i leave this before I actually do have to ask for help ! That reminded me of me and yup I probably would have sent a call for help via facebook too, maybe we should develop an app : )

    Hope you are feeling much better now xoxo


  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Oh Hilary, I do hope that you are feeling a bit better today ...... no sickness, nose bleeds or heaven forbid any traces of food poisoning still pervading your delicate system !

    Glad that Lynn was able to be there with you - I wish we all lived a bit closer to each other to pop round whenever needed ( by the way, I'm okay with temperamental cats ..... having had one or two little feline ' madams ' ! ) Hope that Judy is home soon, but in the meantime sending hugs to you.

    Love, Joycee xxx

  • balderdash and buggerations :(

    and many, many hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx