hello everyone i am doing this blog because i feel so low in myself i thought it may help me i had ovarian cancer had 6 lots of chemo major operation now been told that my last ct scan was ok my first check up in july at outpatients but up until now i have coped with the cancer fine i think but now for some reason i want to keep crying now because as we all no it has not gone its just lying in wait to appear again how can you get use to this i feel so cheated that my life is like this now i say to my husband its like being the walking dead yes i know thinking that is terrible on here there are far worse off people than myself but i just cannot stop thinking this i am 58 years old i feel 25 in my head its really getting me down my poor husband does not no what to say to me i am forever saying to him you will be ok when i am gone or why bother i wont be here i am being selfish i know but i still hope it will be gone in the morning when i awake i just cannot bare it only here can i say these comments and no you will understand i just hope i will get my head back soon thankyou that this site is here for us all as people you tell just do not no what to say to you
