Hi i had Breast cancer 2 years ago and I was full of optimism.My second year mammogram in January was all clear.2 months ago i started to cough and now after '-rays looks my cancer is back in my lungs.I am young only 42 and ate healthy didnt eat pork ork drink alcohol i just cant understand why its happened? Anybody can tell me how long I have left?Because I am going to refuse IV chemo I just want have tablets and be at home.I had chemo before and sitting in that chair was awful and people laughing like they are on a day trip to the Seaside.
Is this the end?I am really emotionally down.What can I expect now?
Hello first can i send you a hug, I'm sorry to hear your news and can't imagine how you must be feeling.
From reading your post you say the xrays looks like the cancer is back in your lungs, I know it must be really difficult but try to cling onto that hope that it might not be.
I think very much like you, although i have only had breast cancer the once, Why has it happened to me? I've never smoked, don't drink. But i guess thats a question no one can answer.
Don't be giving up, would you consider IV chemo IF you needed it in a private room?? I know the hospital i go to has a couple of private rooms people go into. You could ask if your hospital has the same option.
When do you next see your consultant? If you finished your treatment 2 years ago your breast care nurse should still be available to you to talk to, i know mine told me they are available for us 5 years after diagnosis.
Another option would be to talk to someone from Macmillan you can ring between 8am - 8pm 7 days a week, 0808 808 00 00 maybe just chatting to someone would help.
But you know we are always around, give us a shout.
Best wishes and Big Hugs xx
Hi Sceiptfan and Thank you for your kind words.
I am still in a.shock and I lost the faith in a healthcare.I am getting really down.
My BC nurse wasn't really good the only thing she could do for me is to call a psychiatrist when I had a meltdown and panic attack during the chemo.And my hospital refused me to give me even a bed and left me to wait 2 hrs to start the treatment.I assume because I am young.My appointments was sometimes at 11 and I didn't get inside till 1:30 and didn't leave the hospital till 6 pm.
That's why I don't want do chemo anymore plus I can't face hair loss and looking like a Martian and wearing the scared and hats and in London everybody is looking at you and they know.Idont know how people having chemo for years but I can't do it.I prefer to die to enjoy the rest of my life then just to sit in the hospital.I just keep.thinking about dying right now.and want to see my family last time I lost all hope.
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