Needing a friendly voice.....

Hi, I’m 42 and have my BC urgent referral apt Tuesday afternoon, following pain in left side, red mark appearing on skin and lump felt by GP I can’t find myself. Due to difficult home situation with recent loss on both sides, I’ve kept all this to myself. Trying to help my children through grief at the moment and it’s so hard feeling more bad news will be on the way, I’m convinced.  So scared I can’t sleep or eat, feel very lonely although joining this group seems helpful. X