Recently diagnosed, with first appointment with oncology tomorrow (Wednesday), although I've had some information already re treatment plan.
I still feel a bit shocked by the diagnosis, I went to the appointment 100% expecting them to say everything is OK and to be able to get on with my life. I was floored when the consultant said "you have cancer".
Is it normal to not have much of a response? Is this shock?
I've not cried, I've not really reacted in any way and this in itself is worrying as I'm usually an emotional mess.
My manager was crying her eyes out and I was more worried about her than me and my recent diagnosis. I just removed from it. Is this a normal feeling?
Other thing I wanted to share is that I can't help but feel embarrassed about the type of cancer I have, and that's not to say I'm judging anyone, far from it. It's just the impact on myself. I feel like people will judge me and think I've been sexually active (again, so far from the truth). I guess I shouldn't care about what others think but it matters.
Lots of things going around my head at the moment, guessing this is normal.
Anyway, great to see there are forums and hopefully I haven't offended anyone and will get to know some of you, albeit an awful way to meet someone. My thoughts are with each and every one of you in your journey. Lots of love, Nikki
