hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
How are you today? Any better? Please come and talk any time. As I’ve said before I don’t feel I’m much support to anyone here but I’m a good “listener”.
Take care Karen. We are continuing to take our tiny steps along this road but your achievements in my eyes have been wonderful. Well done you!
Any better tonight? I do hope so. It’s still early days for you too and compared to me I think you’re doing brilliantly. You’re allowed some bad days you know.
How about the job? Have you applied? What kind of job are you looking for?( Sorry lots of questions) When Mum first died I often felt like giving my one up as it can be so stressful at times-targets to meet, paperwork etc. I do love working with young children though and to know that I’ve had some bearing on their future makes it worth while.
It sounds as if you stay in a lovely part of the country. As I said to Susan, I stay so far away from you all but sometimes it feels as if you’re round the corner.
Take good care of yourself Jayne and good luck with the job hunting.
Sorry about yesterday, just a bad day.Its just as well I don’t have any interviews, my eyes look terrible today.Thank you for your kind message, I hope you are ok today.I read your post to Susan about your Mum. You went through an awful time, and no I don’t think you were selfish at all.You did what was right for your Mum and I’m sure she knew that.Why do these things happen, what did our mums do that was so terrible to warrant being given something like this.After my Mum was diagnosed she sat here one day and said to me “what have I done wrong, I eat sensibly, I’ve never smoked, I look after myself, why have I got this?”.I just didn’t know how to answer her.All she wanted was a new knee so she could run about with the kids, it wasn’t much to ask for was it?she never did get it, bless her.
Yes I applied for the job yesterday.Its just a part time reception job.I used to be pa/secretary to the md of an architectural practice (9 – 5.30).I loved it there, had been there 5 years. I thought it would be my last job, but it wasn’t to be.I did go back for one week in September (only part time), but my boss said he didn’t want me to work mornings and changed my hours to 2.30 – 5.30, which I didn’t fancy, especially as he had taken on another secretary and wanted me to ‘show her the ropes’!He said that she would be telling me what to do if she wanted something doing!Talk about the tail wagging the dog!!He was on holiday on the Friday, so I sat and typed my notice out, left it on his desk, and walked out.It felt great, the best I’d felt since losing Mum.I know she was watching me that day and laughing.
Your job sounds very rewarding and very tiring.All those little ones running around.It wears me out with just our 2, especially when they get hyper.I don’t see much of them these days because they’re always doing something after school.I have to get a photo album put together for them because Mum asked me to show them all the photos and said “don’t let them forget me”.
Will speak soon, take care, and thanks, love jayne xxx
How are you today? Thanks for your post and sorry I was so down yesterday.You are so right, its when you start to write things down that it sort of hits you what has actually happened isn’t it?I’m sorry you were upset yesterday whilst trying to get things down. You're also right about bottling things up and not wanting to bother anyone, that’s exactly how I feel.And don’t ever think that you’re not a help, you and everyone else on here will never know how much you have helped me, you are all so kind and thoughtful, a real tonic.Its difficult to talk to family as I don’t want to upset any of them, especially my brother, he still really can't talk about Dad, and he passed 13 years ago this May!!He finds it hard, they used to work together and were best mates.
Job – mmmm, thinking about reception but anything secretarial or admin will do.As long as its not too stressful. I had enough stress to last me a lifetime at the last place.
Thanks for the thing on Librans, some of it is true, not sure about people feeling better for having been with me though.I probably really depress them at the moment. Ha ha.The last bit was true, about not being a slave to fashion, I feel so much better in jeans and ‘T’ shirt.That’s another bind about working, suppose I’ll have to start looking smart again.
Anyway, hope you’ve had a good day in Dublin.You were up early weren’t you?Take care, and thanks, love jayne xxx.
How are you today?I’m so sorry about being down yesterday.I know you, and everyone else on here have their own sad memories to deal with, without someone else adding to it.
