AM I THE ONLY CARER WHO NEVER SLEEPS!!!!!

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Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
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    ya talking about custard, chocolate and westlife!!! i dont know if am arfur or marfur, give a kid a break!!! and fogs a daint like kit kat!!! xxxx if am behind now am gan to bed, a thought it would be easier sober!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
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    hey my little sis hells bells
    you never off babe you right with us!
    Hope you sleep well babe
    And trust me this is never easy sober or straight i blame chickie teresa and ole foggy meself! lol
    I'm the only sensible one on here! lol
    You sleep well and hpe to catch up with you again soon
    Have a nice day tomorrow
    love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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    mick.

    who's rolf ??? xxxx
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    g'night hells bells !

    lot's luvs

    an na gan oot wioot yer vest ! ya catch ya deth

    \;0)...........


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    roll on lino farting
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    Hey my ccc MHM

    I'd rather you not be an effing nightmare, course you can come, wouldn't go without ya just behave yourself ok...custards boiled dry now anyway so I'll see ya there..love and hugs chickie MUS xxxxxxx

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    Know the feeling twomb !!

    Grinnnn..........
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    am still here mhm, just cannit keep up wi yous, ha ha! gunna have another glass o water then am hittin me cot , mhm, whos rolf? c u the mora hells bells, even more stupid than helly!!!!!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx night night mick, cheers ! xxxxx
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    hey chickie teresa MUS
    ok's you win i'll be a good girl and straighten me curl!! lol
    Didn't suit me anyway!
    you still owe me custard though so don't forget!
    I'll have it tomorrow! lol
    Yeah we're on our way to Maritus!!!!
    love and hugs your CCC MHM XXXXXXXXX
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    Night Helly

    Our dearest MHM and Ole Foogy Rooster lead us all astray tsk tsk!! sleep well and sweet dreams, have a good day tomorrow and love to you and Keith ((((hugs)))) xxxxx