Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Have heard tens machines good pain relief, hope you get on ok ak hosp on mon, you sound a positive guy............... .......Shell you gone to roost? xx
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still here9 is there anybody out there 0ye ok a ripped it off pink floyed he he still on nights next four nights boo hooo how is every1 paul3mel
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Scary, thats the floyd track im listening to right now,one of my favs...............think i better get to my pit now, never b up in the morn xx
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Thanks Moomy,
I will let you know how I get on today.... feeling a bit nervous....
Big hugs, Fran, am sure you'll be fine! Christie is big but cleaner than many hospitals I've seen in my travels, and all the staff seem caring too....
Moomy
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hi anyone on that fancys a chat xx
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hi shell am paul at work just now ye weekender but got to 4 on 4 off 8nightshifts 8weeks dayshifts how are you everythig all right
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Hi shell, hi paul. How ya doing? xx
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not bad shell how you not had chance to read u profile but seen you on before how thing s xxxx
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hi shezie how you been just noticed you there just having a we cuppa been not too bad got hosy next week tenns machine dont no that much about it but anythings worth a try he he he xxxxx the tablets they make me forgetfull
