Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hi All my chickies, Is anyone still about or are you all tucked up in bed?
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hey mama hen mel, great to see you weve been getting worried about you hun, is everything ok x
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Night night Karen, sweet dreams babe loads of love and hugs T XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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teresa, mama hen just got here so waiting to hear how she is before i go to bed babe xx
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hi Karen surrogate mother hen!
Good to hear from you.
We had news about when Darryl sees the new onco it's the 10th April at 2pm, at last something to aim for
I feel i must apologise for not being about for so long but we've finished the decorating the living room, and recently all i keep doing is falling asleep. I wake for about 2 hrs then asleep again it's been really bad, my ankles hhave swollen and had pains in my chest but i'm not gonna burden you al with my probs, i'll be ok prob just everything caught up with me is all so no worries ok?
Sorry your bug still not gone hope that goes soon.
Iv'e missed such alot bet it takes me two days to catch up! lol
Hope you feel better tom love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
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Hi mother hen mel
your chickies and dear surrogate been worrying, hows things? xxxxx
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hi mama hen you dont need to apologise, poor you, your'e always so busy, if you still keep getting chest pains you will get it checked out wont you? you know we all worry about you hunni, your poor ankles, you must have some rest now decorating is finished, bet it looks lovely. you have been missed loads.
at least you got a date for darryl to see new onco, thats great news, how is he doing? still well i hope.
what did you think about man u stuffing liverpool then (sorry kate, got to milk this one) lol
so good to see you love and hugs chicky karen newly promoted surrogate mama hen xxx
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hi Teresa, so sorry to hear Michaela still in hosp, but hope you get some results tom. Must be very worrying for you both, and i bet she is fed up now after 11 days poor mite. Send her my love and hope she's home soon. I sincerly hope all goes well for you both and that shes home soon. Darryl used to get the s**ts when he was on antibiotics too so not very nice is it, especially if you feel poorly anyway ,to have that to deal with on top is awful.
Sorry i haven't been about for a while but finished the decorating in the living room, and haven't felt too good recently. Have had chest pains and got swollen ankles plus i keep bloody falling asleep!!!! only wake for couple of hrs then back to sleep again, been sleeping up to 18 hrs a day!!! Very bad of me! lol the kids and darryl been nagging me to go to drs but i won't go as probably everything just caught up with me and will pass soon. Anyway enough of my probs you got enough of your own so just don't worry please babe i will be ok i'm a tough old bird after all!! lol
Had some good news though got an appointment for darryls radio. We see the new onco on the 10th April so at least we got something to aim for now. Think radio will prob start just after then as new onco wants to see Darryl before starting radio.
Anyway babe i hope baby Sam is well and hope you and Michaela are both back home together soon
love and hugs mother hen mel xxxx
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Dear mother hen mel
1st off I have to say to dear Karen great that you got the footy thing in again!! Mel, glad you have got a date for Daryll how is he? and more importantly as well you? why you getting chest pains and swollen ankles go and see your dr, im starting to sound like a mother hen now its called worry, we cant have our mother hen feeling poorly. seems with us 4 it 1 thing after another, how are kirsty and daley, hope all ok sending lots of love and hugs XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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Hi Karen surrogate mother hen,
Don't you go worrying about me, iv'e had that from Darryl and the kids about going to dr's but i won't go cos i'm stubborn old bird plus just everything caught up with me is all, so prob be ok in a few days. Please don't worry i'm tougher then i look! lol
Darryl is still doing well and infact, he doesn't seem to be i'll at all anymore! Apart from getting a bit breathless if he overdoes things and having to have regular stops if we go out walking he's doing really well. So i'm really pleased about that
As for man utd beating liverpool, well what can i say as a Chelsea supporter? All i will say is that man utd always seem to have luck on there side and get away with alot of bad decisions but i suppose thats the luck of the game, and how good you are as a team to get away with things!!! Flucky luckey i call them!! lol Sorry if that offends you!
hope you have a nice day tom love and hugs mother hen mel xxxx
