Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
oh feathered friends just pmd you both, thanks chicks Ive had my breakdown and nows Im ok, couldnt get thru this without any of you Love you all dearly K xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Kate, have p/md you back, take care, sweetheart, love you!
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Hey friends Well I just got back from walking the fur babies on the beach and sand dunes, I got on the highest dune and screamed as loud as I could, screamed for DB, myself my Dad and family and each and every one of you and your families, I actually screamed for the whole site, ha ha
Honestly I can laugh now, being a bank holiday the beach was busy busy,people stared at the crazy woman, kids stopped makeing their sandcastles, know I must of looked mad, but friends it was so good, ! So my advice to you all is get out there and scream till your blue in the face !!
Helen chick loveing that thought of yours, this may sound thick, but well I am ,but DB breathes thru the stoma now, they must do them for laryngectomys yeah?, thanks mate I will take all the advice I can get, anything to make my beloved mum comfy Thank the lord shes sleeping now
Love to all, get out screamin Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Hey Chicky Donna So happy I aint the only one who gets comfort from screaming, Do you a deal babe until the hippy hippy shakes have healed and you can get out and about babe I will scream for ya, I will scream so loud you will be able to hear me across the pond !! Maybes i should get myself a silk pillow then people wouldnt stare ha ha
You are an inspiration and your posts just come alive, Ive just walked with you in my head, seen the boats smelt the barbies, wow sounds gorgeous where you are, mum lives in Wales, countryside at the front of the house and beach and sand dunes at the back, great place to be, happy holidays to you, wow I could cope with the temp, chin up sweet, you will get there and be out driving and screaming soon, hope Taylors been a good boy for his mummy today Buckets of love Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Chicky Tortoise You ok love? please let me know K xxxxxxxxxxx
Teresa, Kate, feathered chickies all.....(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) and xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx, too!
Moomy
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Hey feathered friends thanks for the hugs, yep Helen and juls flaked out on the sofa for a few hours, Just seen to DB and she is comfy and attatched to her feeding machine for the night, lets hope its a better one, fingers crossed hey,
Teresa chicken, you still about ? thankyou for my hugs babe, I felt them and now Im hugging you right back, Hows your day been babe? hows our likkle girl? hope all is ok babe? Wonder if " feathers in leathers" is about, ha ha hope he back in his cafe Hi to all others, hope todays been kind to you all, as youve prob read bin a tough one here, but the lovely chicks got me thru, bless em
Kate xxxxxxxxxxx
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hi kate babe
been trying to read back to see how you all been, am sending you tons and tons of love and hugs and to our db bless her heart, hope she is comfy, and hope you manage to get some well deserved sleep hunni. been thinking about you all. so pleased our feathered friends were about to help you
