Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie teresa MUS!! No didn't see the webcam pic what page is it on? Bet that was funny Glad baby chick doing okish Bless her she's doing so well but then she has her prissy mum behind her so got no choice really has she? lol The side effects of the CAV chemo are awful arn't they thats why daz's has been stopped he's just too ill now to cary on with it, so i can understand how you and our baby chick must feel I hope you kick her butt for the exercises, but i expect she's so tired bless her. Do they know what's caused the rash? Love ou my little MUS love and hugs your CCC MHM XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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Hey twin sis MHM i got a twin sisiter .....i got a twin sister ..............i got a twin sister Mhm is my adopted twin sister watch out everyone we are both mad we are both sane oh what the heck we dont know what we are do we somewhere in between lol Me? cramp Paul's style ..............more like he will cramp mine lol i wouldnt / couldnt do that to him anyway he would make me buy his drinks all night cheeky bugger that he is thats the only reason why he would want me to go i will think of something else to do with him it wasnt cheeky uh uh no it wasnt funny made me giggle and i an hear you giggling as you wrote it Love and Hugs Lickle twin sis chickie sue flat butty mophead madwomanxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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hey chickie shezie Maybe chickie Kate can be the one with the red raw bum cos she's always falling on it!!! lol Bless her she's gonna kill me when she reads this but i know she'll find it funny Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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CSFBMM...I got it, though I had to write it down to remember it lol! funny about the shopping ain't it, I do miss it with Michaela for now but I know about the patience thing!!! and everything I'd pick up it would be 'oh mum...no' and likewise, though I was more subtle and say 'yeah that's not bad but what about this'...teens of today eh, when I was one we never had a choice, they were bought for us regardless or hand me downs, though I was alright there being the eldest, baby and his sister are doing great (he's now 5 months old) and is gorgeous!! love and hugs, am off to find this webcam pic so may be a while xxxxxxx
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hey my chickie twin sis sue flat butty mophead madwoman god this name is gonna take a full page soon!! lol You're stuck with me now so you can't change your mind no phoning a friend or ask the audiance thats it now! lol Good job you're not going with Paul than you'll be skint by the end of the night! Or very drunk maybe? lol Love and hugs your twin sis MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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MUS is back!! type a post and miss several... webcam on pg 874 xx
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Shell i think your questions should be put to your therapist wen you see her(,i would push your dr for a refferal i really think it will help you. ) It may benefit for you to face your fears, that way they never as bad as you think they are.It will give you more control. You no how people say "you never no wots gonna happen you could get run over by a bus tomorrow"? well thats true my grandad got knocked down and killed by a bus several years ago now, he was a fit and healthy man! xx
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Teresa, i live very near wymondham, a little village called East Carleton, blink and youve gone through it! How come you no wymondham? xx
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hey all my chickies I'm sorry to have to love and leave you all now but poor daz has fallen asleep on the sofa and i want to get him settled into bed now bless him It has been so nice to catch up with you all again and thank you all so much for cheering me up I hope you and your loved ones all have a nice day tomorrow and will try to get back as soon as i can Sleep well my little chickies love you all so very much Much love and big hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Night bossy old hen Lol. I will send you and Daz some reiki tonight and everyone else much love and light sheree xx
