AM I THE ONLY CARER WHO NEVER SLEEPS!!!!!

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Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
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    hi shell,
    im here as well, if you need to chat xxxxxxxx
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    hi kate and dianne thank you both love u 2. i think i may be better off
    staying off pc for a few days to sort my head out but i will be
    bak on wednesday to let people know my results.
    love to u all
    shell xoxoxox
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    thanx sue hun xoxoxoxo
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    shell
    dont go hun we want to help you sweetheart come on talk to us we all want to support you and try to help through if we can
    please hugs chickie suexxxx
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    shell babe
    if you need to talk i am here hun or on msn or p/m, always here for you, dont feel alone ok?
    all the best for your results babe, am thinking about you and sending tons of love and hugs, karen xxxxxxxxx
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    thanx donna hunni. will b bak in few mins hunni, just getting a drink xoxoxox
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    chickie strawberry shortcake shell
    i got here before you lol
    xxx
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    lol was sending email hun xx
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    sorry shell,
    lost track of you, like i said so slow on this thing you will all have
    to wait for me to catch up ha ha
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    lol no probs diane hun xoxoxox
    thank u for caring enuf to ask after me xooxox