So I’m here alone with my dad, who was diagnosed 12 weeks ago with pancreatic cancer. His shock prognosis was just 2-3 months. We are now at week 13. I am caring for him at his own home where we hope he will be able to die, as that is his wish. He’s very frail
now and has a pressure sore on his heel so his mobility is affected. His spirit is strong but everyday is a challenge and there have been a few where we’ve thought it is the beginning of the end but the he has rallied.
The mental anguish he has endured is cruel beyond belief. I am coping. Just some days are so overwhelming. I have district nurses I can call on to help with dressing his pressure sore and he now has a hospital bed, which has helped. The palliative care nurse manages his pain relief but he is not on a driver yet as he is managing to swallow. The next two weeks are likely to be very hard. I just need somewhere I can vent and get support and advice from other people going through this.
sorry you have all had to find your way here x
Just reaching out with a hug - my mum doesn't have long left and is frailer by the day. It's so heartbreaking because she's such a fighter and still thinks she will be back doing the garden next summer. The one ray of light is this forum and reading that other people are going through the same thing - although it's the club no one wanted to join it is at least a club.
Aww I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this too. You words are such a comfort to me. Like you say, knowing I’m not the only one does somehow help. My dad is the same talking about wanting to go up to the loft when he feels better. It’s just him trying to cope. Tonight he can barely stand and only woke for five minutes to take some tablets then fell asleep again. I’m sorry to hear about your mum. I lost my mum five years ago and it is a pain like no other. I’m so sad I’m going to lose my dad too now. Life is so cruel. Cancer is so cruel. Warm hugs to you x
Oh Obsidian sorry about the loss of your mum too, and for what you're going through with your dad. It's weird, I had about 20 years of stability where nothing really drastic happened in my life. Covid came along and it seems as though it's been nothing but suffering and loss since that started, with lots of mum's close friends dying, mum almost dying, then having secondary cancer as well and losing her independence. It's so hard when we know they're not going to get better, but they are determined that they are.
Sending much love to you and anyone else reading x
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